Do you feel your size?

mlrtri

I am just starting out so I am still bigger than I should be. But I feel like a small person who just happens to be lugging around 60 extra lbs. I am shocked when I look at pictures of myself. I have a very distorted picture in my head. I think that is why it took me so long to finally realize I had to get serious.

I was talking to a friend that lost a lot of weight years ago. She said she still feels like an obese person even though she is not anymore. She said she doesn't think she will ever get over it.

So I was wandering if we are the only crazy ones out there or if other people feel differently than they look.

Do you feel your size (large/small/anything in between)?

aeloine

I am down 35, need another 80-100.

No. I feel AMAZING. I think I'm hot *kitten*. And then I see pictures.

mlrtri

Pictures can be brutal!

seltzermint555

I spent most of my adulthood around 260 lb and I currently feel like I'm right at say, 200 lb and women's size 16 I would say.

Actually I'm at 170 lb and size 10. I just think I will always feel bigger than I am. I've been at my current size for about 3 years and still don't think of myself at this size. I still eyeball things wrong in clothing stores, and take XL tops into the dressing room and come back out for M or L...stuff like that.

It's like I can feel that I don't take up the same amount of space I used to, but I don't feel like it's AS different as it actually is.

Photos are an additional weird thing for me because I look so tall and big next to my friends but way thinner than I think I look. I kind of avoid full body photos for this reason which I know is warped.

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Motorsheen

Twice a day.

Usually in the shower.

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supacindy

I spent most of my life around skinny girls. I would work out every day for hours and look in the mirror and see someone bigger. I was 140 lbs and super fit but didn't feel that way which made me work out harder.
But than life happened... Now I'm 175 lbs and feel smaller than I look until I look at a picture and reality kicks in. I totally kick myself every time I think back at not being satisfied by how I looked. It really sucks.
Just trying to get back to what I once was.

jdlobb

Yep. I feel every unwanted ounce of fat on my disgusting body.

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captainfantastic94

It depends on the day realky

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captainfantastic94

TeinyWinehausen wrote: »

Is bossy sexy? That's the look I'm going for.

Got it down you bossy surfer lady

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KosmosKitten

I've never felt my "size" my entire life. I've always felt at odds with what I see vs. what others see (or what a camera captures).

For example, when I was 20 and 163, friends and family commented on how thin and sickly I looked, and I felt completely fat and disgusting.

However, last year when I was a whopping 223 lbs, I felt fine with myself, mostly happy in my skin and completely confident. It was only looking at photos my husband took of us all when we were hiking The Narrows that I realized how far I'd let myself fall. Yet, inside.. I felt like a teenager. Vibrant, young, full of energy, ready to hike mountains and excited about life.

Now? Not so much. I weigh between those two points, but I have a long way to go before I get to my "goal". And honestly? I'm not really thrilled about this journey. It doesn't excite me, give me energy or make me feel better about myself. It's kind of sad that "fat" me was a happier vibrant person than the me now (which is still fat, let's face it).

It kind of bums me out thinking about it, honestly. But insight is useful regardless of how it makes you feel.

aemw93

Sometimes waaay bigger, sometimes smaller. Who knows. The mind is strange thing

seltzermint555

CanesGalactica, even though my weight was mostly very high I can kind of relate to what you're saying, too!

I felt "fat" and miserable ONLY when I was at my heaviest around 300 lb and my health was beginning to be affected (swollen ankles, out of breath at times after exercise)...but for almost all of my life, I felt very energetic and just generally good...so when I went from 260 lb (where I felt comfortable and had tons of energy) to say 200, 190, 180 and below...people would say "I bet you FEEL so much better now!" and to be honest, I don't. I know my endurance is better and my body has less strain on it. That's great! But I was always pretty energetic, flexible, etc. I felt pretty darn good at say, 250 lb.

rheddmobile

I got up to 272 at my highest, presently 178. My high school / college weight was between 125 - 140 but I haven't been that for decades. My body feels so much stronger and more muscular now that in my mind's eye I'm 140, but then I see photos (or certain angles in a mirror) and think, oh gosh I'm still fat! I've come so far that I can be startled sometimes at how far I still have to go.

I don't think I ever really felt 272. Except when I had to buy clothes. Then I couldn't help noticing that clothing manufacturers despise fat people.

jdlobb

TeinyWinehausen wrote: »

jdlobb wrote: »

Yep. I feel every unwanted ounce of fat on my disgusting body.

Dude. Your body isn't disgusting, it's a body, it's functional, praise it's abilities more.

Nah. It's gross

Wiggymommy

I think it depends on what you were for a majority of time. Was your friend heavier for many years? Her mind could be stuck thinking she's still heavy because she was for so long. You maybe the opposite because perhaps you were a healthy weight most of your life and heavier for just a few years? I'm 31 and have only been out of a healthy bmi for 6 years so I too felt like I was way smaller than where I was. I think our mind just gets stuck at whatever we were at for the longest. That's just my personal experience though.

mlrtri

Although I almost always feel like the smaller self I spent most of my life as I ALWAYS feel like an elephant when buying clothes.... and that feeling lasts for days. Then I don't want to go shopping ever again so I end up wearing rags. Then I end up not feeling good about myself. Then I treat myself to some food. Then I gain weight and HAVE to buy bigger clothes. Then I feel bad..... I AM breaking this depressing cycle. And I can't wait to go clothes shopping and enjoy it!!! (Think I veered off topic a bit).

kimothy38

Fat photos of myself totally gross me out - all my unhappiness on display. Some days I feel awesome and slim and other times I still feel fat. I naturally gravitate to larger size clothing still which is normally too big when I try it on - that makes me realize my thoughts and reality aren't quite aligned.

michael1976_ca

yes every time I step in front of the big mirror

mlrtri

I avoid getting my picture taken because I am slapped in the face with reality of my size. My husband told me that one day our kids will want pics of me and of me with them. That was just one of the many pieces that came together to make me realize I need to do this and I can't put it off (again, off topic and it's my own post/question)

rheddmobile

mlrtri wrote: »

I avoid getting my picture taken because I am slapped in the face with reality of my size. My husband told me that one day our kids will want pics of me and of me with them. That was just one of the many pieces that came together to make me realize I need to do this and I can't put it off (again, off topic and it's my own post/question)

Be kind to yourself. I'm the same way you are - recently after losing a bunch of weight I looked for a before photo and found that the most recent photos I have of myself are from my 10th anniversary trip. I've been married twenty five years. That was my life! And there's no record of it because I felt too fat and ugly in photos. I remember that I thought I was fat in the 10th anniversary photos too, but my husband insisted, and I'm glad he did. And I looked so beautiful back then, even being overweight! I feel a great tenderness and pity for my younger self, I wish I could talk to her and tell her not to be so uptight.

Definitely get cracking - for the sake of your health so you will be around a long time, among other reasons - and make some changes, but in the meantime, try to see yourself through the eyes of your husband and children, who love you. The person you are today is worth taking photos of. You are beautiful in the eyes of those who love you at every weight.

KyleGrace8

My self image is a fun house mirror.

Vikka_V

mlrtri wrote: »

I am just starting out so I am still bigger than I should be. But I feel like a small person who just happens to be lugging around 60 extra lbs. I am shocked when I look at pictures of myself. I have a very distorted picture in my head. I think that is why it took me so long to finally realize I had to get serious.

I was talking to a friend that lost a lot of weight years ago. She said she still feels like an obese person even though she is not anymore. She said she doesn't think she will ever get over it.

So I was wandering if we are the only crazy ones out there or if other people feel differently than they look.

Do you feel your size (large/small/anything in between)?

I know I am small but I guess I don't have an accurate perspective of my own size because I can feel fat or skinny from moment to moment.

GemstoneofHeart

It changes all the time for me. I grew up skinny thinking I was fat. Then I got fat and thought I was so skinny. When I was my heaviest I thought I looked so good in the mirror. Then I'd see a picture and I would be in shock.

Now I've lost 40 pounds and sometimes I feel thin and sometimes I feel fat. Depends on what I'm wearing and the angle now. Hopefully after losing my last 30 pounds I'll be more consistent and feel thin all the time. Who knows!