Long time restarter, first time tackling the real issue

kaciemennie

Hey all. I’m Kacie. I recently entered treatment for Binge Eating Disorder (BED). As part of this, I am not allowed to intentionally lose weight. The goal is to address the behavioral issues head on and learn acceptance, selfcare, mindful eating, and boundaries.

I’ve struggled with my weight, stress, and body imagine since I have been about 8 years old (I’m 27). In August, at the suggestion of my doctor, I entered this eating disorder program. At first, I thought it was complete BS. BED sounds like how everyone I know eats. How Americans live. It sounds fake and like a label so people can be given a pass for poor behavior. But, I was finally at the end of my rope. I’ve struggled with anxiety and depression for most of my life as well, along with ADD. When my team gave me the support to start working through the ADD and BED, it was like my mind was quieted. Instead of obsessing over ever detail of my food and my body, I just started enjoying it for what it is. I am mostly healthy. I’m am lucky to be alive. I am lucky to be a first generation college student obtaining a PhD. My anxiety and depression decreased rapidly and my focus has returned as I have slowly started to regain perspective over my food choices and my body image. I decided I was worth it.

I’m still learning the ropes and have a long way to go. It’s time to be more mindful of the nutrients that I am putting in my body. I am looking for a supportive group of people to keep me motivated. I also just want people other there potentially struggling with BED that it’s not fake, you’re not alone, and support is available.

girlinthebox18

It's nice to meet you! My name is Krystal. I am also a "restarter" who is now trying to do this for the right reasons. I have never heard of BED, but I have issues with eating healthy obsessively for a while and then going overboard on the not-so-good foods. I am now trying to accept myself and my body, and just concentrate on finding balance. I also deal with anxiety and depression, as well as OCD, but I have spent the last 15 years working on my mind, and now I want to care for my body as well. I too, will be the first college graduate in my family. It is amazing that you are going for a PhD! At 30 years old with 2 children, I am only trying to earn my Bachelor's for now, but one day I hope/plan to take my education further. Reading your story is very inspiring, and I wish you all the luck in the world in your endeavors!

kaciemennie

Thank you! You as well! All that you’ve done is such an accomplishment!