It's time to be real

healthy_kim

After many years of yo yo dieting that eventually lead me down a path of starving my self then came the binge eating last year I had enough and stopped making my self sick! Then stopped starving my self and just ate and ate but I couldn't stop the binging. December 2017 when I stepped on the scale and was only 3 lbs away from my heaviest weight ever the weight I said I would never be again I knew it was time to get back to how I used to be a very long time ago. It's time to eat "normally" eat without worrying about it not obsessing about the calories I'm sick of it after over 10 years of this ... I've had enough. Now I know how I should eat well I think I know how I should eat but my mind is constantly playing tricks on me and you'd think I don't know anything.
I feel like I'm going to be stuck here forever you know?
Anyway my binge eating was out of hand so I decided after searching that I would do the potato cleanse to stop the cravings and it WORKED and it got me eating meals again proper meals with veg and filling meals. Although I just slipped up and binged tonight and I'm laying in bed with really bad tummy pains I know tomorrow I'll be OK. My aim for this year is to eat when I'm hungry and not writer of I eat something that used to be in the bad list because it's not on any list any more. I need to learn some healthy full filing recipes with healthy proteins and veg I'm still worried about my weight but I've only been eating right for 2 weeks so I know it's only early days. I've lost 4 lbs, it feels like I've gained it because I'm eating food. I just want to do things right and treat my body right.
Whenever I try and talk to friends or family about this they don't know don't care they tell me what to do as if its easy when its not...
Thanks for listening.
Kimberley x
(Who weighs 15 stone)

PAV8888

Hug?

Not sure what % of this is caused by trying to starve yourself and binging in reaction and what % of this needs to be separately addressed with the help of a specialist if the situation is affecting the quality of your life (and it sure sounds like it is affecting it).

Large and persistent deficits tend to trigger binges all by themselves... there by itself is one hint on where to start...

Marilyn0924

I wish you luck OP, and please consider getting some counselling regarding your food relationship issues. (hugs)