my blog because BLOGS don't work for all of us Feb,28

ysache13

I made only one blog and then WHAM nothing! it would not save again, and I was going to keep making comments but I want to be able to have an order each day and add to my blog. It makes no difference if it's read or not, so I'm going to use this - you can just skip me if you wish - I apologize I'm using community but I'm loving ME for once and I really want a public blog - you never know I may touch one person's heart and that's what I'm after as well - so transferring now:
on Feb 28, the system didn't work so I wrote them and it's working now so I'm keeping my blogs - this was the 2nd after losing one prior - it's all good!
Ever type out your thoughts and when you go to send or you think you sent it but it never "took?" Well that's what I went thru today when I made my 2nd blog to mysel and I just can't find it and I asked others for help on here and wrote the help people, but not one person responded to my call I'm bummed a little. I guess it's that feeling thing again like no one's taking out a minute to really help - and not feeling too important, BUT the up side (there's always one right?) Is I'm NOT using this site really for myself other than to encourage me, by me and for me. I'm too old, been dieting too many times lost hundreds of lbs and after the big one from 296 to 150 - and now up to 183 (or so it said today) I'm NOT relying on others support because my best friend is with Jesus and this IS a walk with me and God first and foremost period. David encouraged himself and he was God's special one really as He said "David was a man after His heart" well so am I and I just pray this will take so next year I can go back and read these posts. I also wish this site was more user friendly for people like me who really are clueless and only come on to check mail and a little facebook now and again, BUT I am so glad I found this site so I can write myself, encourage myself and also look up those calories knowing that's the real answer to this issue - even when it comes to emotions. I realize most don't have a lot of understanding from the word and that's fine nor support groups let alone psychology but I'm blessed to have spent many years learning and now rather than just giving all the time, I'm taking time out for me (now that's a first) - you hear always how it's not selfish and you must be healthy all the way around first esp to help your family so now's finally my time. Besides, I have my mini goals and the first is to look good for Lana's wedding and second to go back to Greece and see family after 39 yrs! Yes, it's time to think of myself, even if my son has to come and stay with me starting tomorrow after breaking up with his finace' I know this isn't ideal for him either but it'll all work out. I'm NOT going to get burdened esp before my surgery and he can come with me that day and take care of me, so God always works things out! Also, I did find a great pen pal on here, a young sweet girl who I just adore already. She is reminding me in ways of myself when I was young and I hope I can help her also NOT be a yo-yo'er and like me all of a sudden wake up at 58 while she's in her 20's and say what I'm saying now - WHY on earth did I not change my lifestyle! this doesn't have to be difficult, and this site has been such a blessing already and I'm only here now 1.5 weeks! thank you Lord, thank you myfitnesspal and thank you anyone who choose to read and leave a note - I do pray over us all - now that IS the greatest gift I can give each of you even if you don't understand hugs to me, hugs to you. This is a bummer I have to do it in comments