My Bog March 3 (Comcast)

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This is great - because what's a blog anyway? I can write anything I want at any time, past - present and future so with that, OMG yesterday SUCKED, today SUCKED (but not too bad) I still turned around and blessed my daughter by putting a little money in her account (computers are a wonderful thing) - But this Cable issue - omg, even I can't see what decision I make in the end - So my comcast went over 200.00 and yesterday all they gave me was 170 (that was over 4 hours on the stupid phone) and I was still upset/hurt but I can't argue - it's not me - So I call another company and the guy was so sweet (spanish from south america, LOL) call centers are everywhere - but he was so cute - says it's in my area (I hope) and only 85.00 WITH 200.00 visa cards to spend plus 3 t.v. sets where mine is only 2 sets now cause I called AGAIN today to tell them what I found and still only down to 101.00 (what???) plus still 2 t.v.'s and no money to spend, hahaha - BUT he did say it would last 2 yrs instead of the 1 like the cheaper one which I love cause I HATE calling every year But I prayed and I'm still going to take the new one and that guy better have been honest that I can cancel it cause I approved it - or I'll really be upset, but this way every day it's a little lower now, AND I can see for sure if they can change it Monday - Pray for this chicky! I'm going to movies in a bit and tomorrow is weigh in but I MUST have popcorn - yikes - I'll get small for first time - I'll add to this later

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I'm amazed that I still battle with anxiety - here it is now evening time, went to the movies and still feeling the anxiety with all those phone calls knowing tomorrow I have to talk to the other guy again and now I'm worried that by agreeing with the one I have, what if the guy lied to me. Why am I so trusting and kind? It does bite me in the rear but the Lord will always make up for my heart it seems and things will work out - this is where blind faith has to just always play itself out again. I am encouraging myself to get through this and this writing is helping me because I SEE all the more how I would talk to Joyce every day and we'd share our entire days together - every little thing - every little up and down in life. She's always comfort me, encourage me, and more than that, she'd always SEE clearly when I couldn't and vise versa. Oh how I miss her and how I also ate because of her leaving me and going to be with the Lord. I am in a weird way also wanting to not only lose weight for me ,but I do carry her in my heart and we both fought this battle all our years together so I want to do this for "us". I wish she was here just to say "don't worry about the cable, whatever you're suppose to have, you will and it'll work out" - I miss her so much - I sit here and cry, and I would eat, but right now I will say it again, the Lord IS my strength and I do NOT want to eat, in fact I want more than anything to LOSE and so grateful I started 2 weeks ago. I pray tomorrow at weigh in I lose of course - but please Lord, don't let me have gained - I can't go any less than I already am, LOL - and eventually I KNOW it has to come off - I mean it has to by the math, LOL - so I'm just grateful I didn't self talk myself out of starting and doing it now like I did these past 4 months (and I refuse to add up how thinner I'd be had I started in Oct like I said I would) self defeating talk is another GOAL - it NEVER pays to look backwards - it's over and now to keep moving forward, I'm proud of myself and Joyce would be proud of me too - Lord, continue to bless me and Lana, continue to guide lead and bring back our lives to us in a healthy way, in Jesus name, amen