My Blog March 7

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I'm so thrilled to be 180 today! Wow 7 lbs in 2.5 weeks - maybe I have a chance to be around 165 for sure for Lana's wedding! 15 lbs in 5 months is only 3 a month - so who cares if I'm on my back in bed! Today I also got new title for car and a few people already wanting to see the car! I hope it sells fast and I can just go ahead and use this car without putting in storage! I'm really enjoying this new t.v. stuff being able to record my shows is wonderful and I can't wait for Lana to come home and surprise her with it in her bedroom too! Thank you Lord for all the little things - and thank You that it's done because 5 days was a tad much - Good thing I'm not working to do it all - yikes! I feel GREAT! really feel good inside again, what a blessing - Now to only find a dress for wedding maybe this weekend because I'll be flat on my back double YIKES - but I love the amazon one though everyone says it may not work out buying over the computer - anyone reading this know that one? I think I'll ask on my homepage and see what everyone says - Good idea! I may be back!

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That bridal store ROCKS - both the girls said starting tomorrow they are ON IT to find me a dress, hahaha - I may just take a drive to get OUT (good for ME) tomorrow and go back Saturday to see them both and maybe my daughter can come on Saturday and show them her wedding dress. I can honestly say that right now and after almost 3 yrs of sadness BEYOND, I can say I feel very uplifted - very optimistic and yes, happy - the weight still plays the BIGGEST roll with these feelings and I will NOT deny truth to myself - I can't afford denial when it comes to this FAT - or what I'm putting in my mouth and I will NOT use any circumstance as an excuse to hurt myself any more - Jesus help me truly love myself as You love me, in Jesus name, Amen

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OMG Lord, could you bless me more in one day? I got a text from my son who is being a knucke-head right now's girfriend and though they are not broken up and she moved in with her mom, she knows I'm the babies yiayia (grandmother) and she was KIND enough to ask if I'd like her to make the drive (she's over an 1.5 hr drive) with my baby to see me - She knows surgery is Wed and that blessed me so much! I wrote my son and told him, (all the truth even if he doesn't like hearing it) but he needs to grow UP - get away from those people, don't drink, get therapy and for God sakes go to court and work out visitations because this is his 2nd baby and I lost (until last year because I found the mom and saw my girl who's now 11) and told him, this ISN"T even about him, it's about the babies and they deserve REAL family (unlike him finding those people) and I refuse for her not to know me and me not to bless her - and that's that - so she's coming SATURDAY and Lana and I both will see her! Oh I can't wait! I'll post some pictures on here of my baby doll - she's 1.5 yrs old, her name is Aubrey and is perfect! Thank you LORD - what a blessing I can sleep with a smile, OMG I haven't smiled in 3 yrs - and losing this weight is the icing on TOP!!! I can see it all coming back off now! happy, happy, happy, happy - yep I'm happy tonight!