My Blog March 9

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This is almost bazzare to feel happy and peace (of mind) for several weeks and if that's not enough (which it IS) to go in only 2 days to 3 bridal stores and just when I thought I found my dress yesterday, oh NO today I went to one nearer to me and every dress I tried on not only fit, but were all so cute AND less expensive! I found a ball gown that for the first time I had the same feeling when I first tried on my own wedding dress many moons ago. It's a ball gown and though that means at high waist it goes PUFF, omg, it's so sweet and so different and that's ME. I first of all REFUSE To look like some old lady in the mother-of-bride dress so that was OUT - I also did NOT want to get a bridesmaid dress which is what I did last summer at last minute that's in my picture and oh how I did NOT like that grey but was forced to get the color my daughter in law said (YUCK) - so the sky's the limit and though I was thinking navy blue - this is royal blue AND the bottom is WHITE with large very beautiful flowers on it. Ok that sounds ugly, but it's NOT AND it's a dress I could wear again if I ever get a chance to go to the Grammy's! I'll be able to say, yep, got my dress, lets go! Tomorrow I'll lock it in when I go back with Lana but I'm still in shock that I could fit into both a 12 and 14. Now to figure out how much weight can I lose without walking at all so I pick the right one. These dresses happen to also be going of of stock so I get a discount on the dress too! OMG, I'm so thrilled I could jump out of my skin! I'll even have Lana take a picture with her better camera and see if I can send to a few people and maybe post on here! Now to get excited about seeing our little Aubrey tomorrow. My son who's still acting with no wisdom and has now decided instead of making a court appointment to fight to get visitations, oh no, he has told me he deserves a vacation and is planning on driving to Florida with a friend. REALLY???? Of course I told him what I thought and said, what I did for Lana and them (the 2 boys) AND nothing comes before his daughter - so with all that said, I told him though I won't discuss anything with her - God bless her for thinking of ME and bringing me the baby a few hours tomorrow. I've not seen my own grandbaby since Thanksgiving as she was very ill for Christmas. I haven't even seen her in all the outfits I bought her, but that's fine, I just want to spend time with her. I fear that she'll forget me and Lana so tomorrow will be such a wonderful day to see her and then get my dress! I thank God as I was able to hug so many ladies at the store and prayed over 2 of them! What's better than that? NOTHING - The hospital also called me and I'm all checked in and prepared to go under the knife. I know I can do this - and besides, if I were to die, that only hurts Lana and the boys, for me - all the worry, pain, etc., will be gone and I'll be with Joyce again and we'll have a blast with the Lord! It would be again not a loss - so with that - lets do this! I'm even excited to weigh in Sunday, hahahaha - praying to get into those 70s before I can't use scale again for a long time - YIKES