My Blog March 10

ysache13

Who would have thought I wouldn't put in my daily log until 10:30 p.m. but it feels so nice to be busy! I only have 3 days left before I can't walk again and I still hobble with the first one and have to take my time walking but I just have to get this over with! I've prayed about it and it's what I feel I need to do now instead of later so I can enjoy the wedding so much more than if I wait - I'll not even be where I'm at now, but God holds me in the palm of his hand and I'm trusting Him, not humans anyway! So what a GREAT day really - First I get to finally see the baby. OMG she grew so much in a few months! She's getting tall and is still the cutest little darling in the world! Now after talking to Christopher and being honest with all of this, he's at a real cross-road in his life. He has this ONE chance to turn his life around and fight for his baby and for his girlfriend, but if he stays self-centered, keeps drinking and doesn't get real therapy and document it - oh forget it - he'll be another loser who will keep hurting women and that's not happening - He hates when I talk about emotional and verbal abuse and control on women but this IS the ME TOO time and I'm thrilled about that and so happy she left him even though he's my son. Her health and babies comes FIRST so Lord bless her, keep her strong and help her to stay out of denial, in Jesus name, and then for Lana to come and take me to try on dress! I felt so good in that dress - like I did when I found my wedding dress! - and I didn't get size 14, NOPE I got the 12 and I fit into it and it's only a tad tight at the waist but I KNOW I'll keep losing - In fact if my calculations are correct (and they usually are) at the least I'll be a size smaller and if it comes off MORE I could be where I was when I became a flight attendant and 2 sizes smaller than I am now which would still be fine, I'm sure they could fix it to look nice and again, one size would make it fit perfect, 2 sizes they could take in a little no worries! I truly love that dress and I can NOT wait - now to pray my son gets it together because if her mom isn't there, not sure who would take care of baby and honestly it's about MY BABY that day - so I guess we'll have to see as the months move on. This was just a very nice day! AMEN