My Blog March 16

ysache13

I'm proud of me! Yep sure am! Started 2 weeks and then to go thru this major surgery on my foot and still keeping my food intake low to lose is wonderful. I know I can continue to do this and when I can finally stand and try my dress on again, I believe I'll feel so wonderful in it. I'm NOT going to let things bother me like I've had to the last 2 yrs. I know sometimes when anxiety hits, it comes fast and furious, but I've been able to breath, pray and reach out so I don't have to use a stupid pill for that either. I'm so glad that I've never turned to drugs even though I have them just in case. It's like the food, I release it all to the Lord, reach out to others and breath!!! My son has not chosen to get help to try and heal, rather he's in a car with those people he wants to call his other family driving to florida which is sad. It's spring break and I know ALL he'll do is drink. If he ends up behind bars for acting out since he can NOT behave normal when he drinks - he's one of those who is out of control and then doesn't even remember, but I have to choose to either worry until he returns or just put it out of my mind and keep my focus on me and my healing and that's where I'm going with this - out of sight, out of mind because when he returns I already told him, he has to choose and I'm cutting the ties. I'll love him, but won't engage in crazyness - our family is what I'd call normal and their family is what I'd call trash, abusive and a bunch of low life drunks becasue they are along with harming people (yep, they sure have) and it's hurting me because I risked my life to safe his, adopt him and give him a nice life - so for him to reach out to these people after all these years is nuts so I choose to put up my strong boundries and pray besides I can't control him and I don't want to either. Time for him to grow or fall - so if anyone happens on this and is a christian would you pray this with me? Lord, touch Christopher and draw him to Yourself, heal him and set him on the right path for his life in Jesus name, amen

Nony_Mouse

Not sure if you're aware, but there is a space on your own page to create a blog: http://www.myfitnesspal.com/blog/ysache13

Just thought I'd point that out, then you'll be able to have all your entries in one place, easily found by you and your friends, rather than having to hunt through the public forum if you want to refer back to them

ysache13

I never have to hunt - the blog area doesn't work for everyone as I've written down the error message and sent to them. I need to write and I look at it like this - no one has to read it either if they don't want. I need to finally think of me first and take care of myself and writing and adding up calories is what's holding my life together so honestly I don't see myself not writing, but I do thank you for reaching out. I also have another lady trying to help me - I just had major surgery Wed as well and I'm all alone and won't be able to touch the floor for 6 weeks, and this is my connection to other human beings as well. Blessings - and thank you but I'm going to still write and hopefully you'll just by-pass me - not trying to be anything but myself - Who knows maybe they'll fix it because there are others I saw who can't blog on this site - and I truly love this site, it's saving my life - - Not sure what else I can do and like that I'm not alone and others on here also trying to stay healthy. Blessings

ysache13

I need to add a little more because I know human's don't realize that sometimes they hurt one another. As a minister, I've counseled hundreds in the past 37 yrs but I need to do me and who would have thought writing to keep myself going esp right now when I have no family, can't even minister others, can't work and can't walk for 6 weeks that the share about me using this area to help myself touched my heart in a sad way - I am a loving person, a giving person and finally putting my health first that's all. I don't want to feel bad when I'm working this hard for my little girl so I look decent at her wedding. I'm not trying to be a rebel type, the blog area doesn't work for me, I wrote them several times a few weeks ago when I found this site but never got a response nor did they fix it and yet, I want to feel accepted and left alone to just keep moving forward and take care of myself - ok that's all - now I feel sad - and not safe to be myself - figures as soon as I started to feel a little good after 3 yrs of pure hell - Jesus, I need You Lord and I know You got me - You ARE my family and I'm not alone because of YOU - Amen and Amen

Nony_Mouse

Wasn't my intention to make you feel bad, I was merely pointing out the existence of the feature, and I did it in a friendly way, or so I thought. That really shouldn't make you feel sad or hurt, you're reading ill intent where there was none. Putting that back on me is more than a little unfair.

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Nony_Mouse wrote: »

Wasn't my intention to make you feel bad, I was merely pointing out the existence of the feature, and I did it in a friendly way, or so I thought. That really shouldn't make you feel sad or hurt, you're reading ill intent where there was none. Putting that back on me is more than a little unfair.

How could I find mine?
I am interested in dog hair styles .especially dog dyeing. Not meaning a dead dog. I like to color dogs fur . But I don't think others here would be particularly interested in it because it's not fitness related so I'm hesitant to talk about it on the boards. I might enjoy writing about it though in private.

ysache13

I can't control the feelings that came from it, I only wanted to share what was happening to me and I'm still feeling sad, but I must do whatever to live. I have gone thru 3 yrs of pure hell and coming out of it finally and trying to also get back in shape all of us are vulnerable and if it's "prohibited" for some odd reason, I think it would have been better that the owners of the site say something because it makes me feel like I shouldn't be posting when anyone can start a thread, that's all it is - but Im' not going to let anyone take my Joy away any longer and I'm not upset, just felt hurt not understanding why you felt I needed to know as if I'm not bright enough to know better and not sure how you couldn't know it would hurt (anyone) for that matter, but again, it's water under the bridge and I'm still going to do me and write anything I want to keep up my new way of life to get healthy. This is the best gift (this site) and I can't let others make me feel bad. Thank you for saying it wasn't your intent because in this day everyone wants to control people in one way or another so I accept what you said as truth and moving forward - maybe it would be wise to just ignore my thread - My goal is to heal and if I touch anothers heart and it helps them by being transparent then that's a GREAT thing - and besides who knows, they may fix the blog area - I've shared with them - thanks

L1zardQueen

I just tested my blog and it works for me. Do you use the app or the website to post?

Nony_Mouse

I never said you couldn't post in this way in this forum, OP. Again, I merely pointed out a feature that you may not have been aware of (many people aren't), because you seem to be putting a lot of very personal stuff in these posts. Again, that is fine if you are happy for that information to be so publicly accessible, but I imagine many people would be more comfortable with a slightly less public venue for that kind of thing and wanted to let you know that option was available. Obviously the personal blogs here are still publicly accessible, but not nearly as visible.

As to how I couldn't know it would hurt you, again you are reading intent that wasn't there. I am not responsible for that, you are. If I read a completely innocuous post such as that and was hurt by it, I would ask myself if there was anything in there that could be definitively read as malicious or hurtful, or if I was in fact being uncharitable to someone whose intention was to help. I like to give the benefit of the doubt unless there is actually evidence to support otherwise. No, you can't control the feelings that came from it, but you can question those feelings and whether or not they are actually warranted. Surely this is something you would say to the people you counsel?

ysache13

I don't want to continue this - As I stated I'm coming out of 3 yrs of hell and just had major surgery 2 days ago, have no relatives in this country, and all I can say is I'm still human and I did feel sad - so it's over and done with - I'm moving forward and will post what I want, where I want and when I want - if they ever fix the site great - but do I care if people read - not at all because I'm always honest and it's my life, my truths so it's all good - maybe I'll post on a different thread - makes no difference, I just need to write, that's all I'm saying - right now, I really need to write

Nony_Mouse

And that's fine, OP. You are obviously going through a very difficult time, and I'm glad that you have found something that helps you.

I will ask the Goddess to bring you peace and light during my next healing spell.

Blessed Be.