Starting Again

euronorris

Hi All

This isn't my first time on MFP, or even my first time losing weight, but I am back and ready to get back to healthy.

I never struggled with my weight when I was young. I ate whatever I liked (and it was mostly junk to be honest as I was such a fussy eater) and I didn't gain weight. Probably because I was very active and sporty back then. Once I left school, the activity dropped and the weight slowly started to pile on.

I've yo yo'd since then between healthy and active, and overweight and sedentary. At my heaviest, last year, I was in the obese category. This was after my daughter was born, and I was always so tired and hungry. I ate way too much, including lots of snacks (chocolate, biscuits, crisps etc), and I wasn't moving around very much. A lot of people lose weight after the birth, I gained over a stone (14lbs)! I was 196.6lbs. The heaviest I have ever been. I wasn't happy, I wasn't healthy and I wasn't a good role model to my daughter. So, I started with weight watchers at the time, with my mum and lost 30lbs (got down to 166.6lbs). I was in the overweight category and only about 6.6 lbs away from being in the healthy range again. I know BMI isn't everything, but until I am in the position to work on sculpting my body more, it's a good starting point. My weight was not down to muscle. It was definitely fat.

Anyway, after that, I 'fell off the wagon' so to speak and 1 bad week, became 2, then a month and so on. I am now back at 191.6lbs and ready to start over. I've worked hard on introducing my daughter to a wide variety of healthy foods and flavours, in the hope that she doesn't end up a fussy eater like I was (something I have worked hard to improve in myself over the last decade) and so far (fingers crossed) it's working. But, I can't continue hiding in the kitchen to eat a packet of crisps or a chocolate bar. It's not healthy for my relationship with food, and it won't be healthy for her either (children are very good at noticing things, even when you think they haven't). I also want activity to be a big part of our lives, so that she has good foundations for a healthy life of her own.

So, here I am, starting again. I know what to do, what to avoid, but I need to work on managing my emotions in a more healthy way.

SW: 191.6lbs
GW: 133lbs

Healthy new habits today - water instead of dr pepper zero, no snacking on crisps or chocolate and walked to and from work in the snow (1.2 miles each way - frankly safer than driving round here this morning).

The plan is to allow myself treats, and alcohol (not really a big drinker anyway) here and there, but not too many and to track them. I need to develop a healthy relationship with food where these are treats, not everyday items, and certainly not eaten every day. To walk to and from work as much as possible (sometimes I need the car to do grocery shopping or go to another office for work).

I have already got meal plans in place, that I made to help us save money and stop wasting food. They weren't made with weight loss in mind, but equally, they are all home cooked meals and I don't think they will be a problem. The first week should be a good indicator though of whether or not any tweaks are required.

I can do this, I can do this, I can do this! One day at a time.

Thanks for reading x

times60

Of course you can do it. I totally understand when you fall off the wagon how hard it is to get back on. You can add me as your friend if you like and we can support each other.