Why is it I feel better rather than worse!?

GreatSetOfBrains

Feel worse rather than better****

Okay so... I've had a rough year! Several people I know have died, but it's not the end of the world. I'm alive and well. I was out of town over the weekend and again I see old friends. There are several different comments. "You look good for your weight! Don't worry so much!" Or "Oh, would it kill you to forget about your diet for a few days? You're not exactly fat."
Now, these were meant to be compliments, but instead I feel HORRIBLE. So then I run into a friend on Monday, everyone has this friend. She could eat anything and still weigh 100lbs soaking wet, now she is approx 200 (I didn't ask) and she says to me, "we'll dont you look nice...." Followed by how hard her life has been. I asked her to stop making me feel like crap because she gained weight. One thing lead to another and we argued. She left and her husband stayed. She apologized for her and said I looked great blah blah blah. Now seeing her should be motivation to go to the gym right? Well sadly it's not. I just don't get it... Am I going through a funk!? I have plenty of support... I just feel unmotivated. I get frustrated and go to the gym anyway. Lately if I kiss a work out I'm all sorts of beating myself up... *feeling frustrated*

taunto

motivation can be hard to come by. I think we live in a society that is becoming more and more accepting to being fat. When I was in MI, I saw so many fatties around that me being fat didn't felt too odd.

My motivation kicked in from not being able to moved around with ease. I recalled how easy doing certain things were and how that had changed.

I always try to keep myself motivated. Little things like keeping up with the nephew or trying to work for flat stomach or checking out beautiful girls etc. Anything really to keep myself motivated. Everybody will have to find the motivation for themselves though.