I lack Passion

2020yesyouwill2020
2020yesyouwill2020 Posts: 115 Member
in Motivation and Support
But I don't want to anymore. I want to find the time abd the energy to really live life. I feel like with winter approaching I've become very aware that I'm just existing again. I go to work. Pay my bills. Count me food. Day in. Day out. And I'm happy for the routine but it's a bummer too. This weekend I've planned a visit out of town. Next weekend I think I'm going to just get in my car and drive west for a good several hours. Or maybe south to the coast. I feel so isolated in Abilene. Ever felt like this before?

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  • Rocknut53
    Rocknut53 Posts: 1,794 Member
    Every...single...day...
  • amyjsparkles
    amyjsparkles Posts: 6,165 Member
    Yes, I feel the same. Often.
  • Tankiscool
    Tankiscool Posts: 11,105 Member
    Yes, I believe we all experience this. Running the rat race its referred to. I think more and more people are coming to this conclusion that they can't live the life they are used to and are deciding to do something about it. Which explains why we have all these 30 to 40 year olds retiring at a young age and being financially free. Not living the 9 to 5 life anymore and doing what they want and love to do. Or you hear about those that decided to leave society as me and you know it and buy land and live off of it instead of using money and traditional ways of life.

    Maybe for you its traveling. There are people that travel the world and work odd jobs at a city and move onto the next one. Not saying this is the answer to your question but definitely know for sure that you are not the only one that experiences this in life.
  • 2020yesyouwill2020
    2020yesyouwill2020 Posts: 115 Member
    I think it's just a down hill spiral. I'm not feeling very motivated at all. I'm not craving any junk food, I just feel like, why stick to this? Why stick to anything? And I know this will probably pass but I'm just on the downward side of my enthusiasm. I think I'm a little bummed out because of the rain or the endless messes with our two new puppies. Definitely already over the get up, clean, got to work, come home and clean a little more then rinse cycle repeat. I know this sounds weird but can yall just tell me to grow up and get over it. I feel like of no one tells me to stick to this I might stop tracking and I cant think of a single time I've tracked my meals for 35 days. Ugh! What is wrong with me!
  • Rocknut53
    Rocknut53 Posts: 1,794 Member
    Perhaps you should speak to a health care professional. You seem to be exhibiting classic signs of depression (something I deal with). Sometimes life is overwhelming, other times it's just "meh". Other times it's OK. There doesn't seem to be any triggers it just happens. By speaking to someone about this issue you can make a plan as how to deal with it...meds, therapy, or whatever. Recognizing what's going on is the first step. Best of luck to you.
  • 2020yesyouwill2020
    2020yesyouwill2020 Posts: 115 Member
    I can't deny I probably have lingering depression. When everything is smooth sailing I have no episodes and this little exhaustion I'm exhibiting now is nothing compared to the downward days where I couldn't leave bed and I felt like the worst version of myself. This is manageable, a bit of weather blues tied to these crazy pups. Look at what I woke up to! Just look! I just need to vent a little. I just put too much on my plate with the addition of puppies but we are working hard to break this behavior. Thanks for your concern rocknut :)
  • 2020yesyouwill2020
    2020yesyouwill2020 Posts: 115 Member
    Maybe I am on the front of depression. Or very exhausted. First day off, slept 20 hours...

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