Ugh...food has betrayed me
OnlyDragonQueen
Posts: 75 Member
I love food. I believe many people that are overweight tend to. I never realized how much food was affecting me how I felt because I've been eating bad for so long. It was normal to need to go to the bathroom a bajillion times a day while my stomach revolted for my deeds.
That was until I ate well for 2 weeks. I've been doing really well, picking healthy options, avoiding soda most of the time, cutting out energy drinks, avoiding getting bacon AND sausage AND tator tots for breakfast every single morning. Avoiding eating fast food for dinner EVERY. SINGLE. NIGHT. I didn't realize how much better I was feeling until my mental state pushed me to eat that slice of dominos pizza for breakfast yesterday...and then have wendy's at lunch...and cheese its for a snack...then pizza for dinner.
I stayed under my calories yesterday, and didn't have any soda...but holy *kitten* I felt like *kitten* yesterday. My stomach hurt, I felt gross. I felt uncomfortable.
This was an eye opener. Damn it, now I'm going to have to stick to this healthy living thing (sarcasm, obviously I'm going to.)
That was until I ate well for 2 weeks. I've been doing really well, picking healthy options, avoiding soda most of the time, cutting out energy drinks, avoiding getting bacon AND sausage AND tator tots for breakfast every single morning. Avoiding eating fast food for dinner EVERY. SINGLE. NIGHT. I didn't realize how much better I was feeling until my mental state pushed me to eat that slice of dominos pizza for breakfast yesterday...and then have wendy's at lunch...and cheese its for a snack...then pizza for dinner.
I stayed under my calories yesterday, and didn't have any soda...but holy *kitten* I felt like *kitten* yesterday. My stomach hurt, I felt gross. I felt uncomfortable.
This was an eye opener. Damn it, now I'm going to have to stick to this healthy living thing (sarcasm, obviously I'm going to.)
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Congratulations. Not everyone gets such clear signals from their bodies as to its approval/disapproval.
Yup, looks like you're gonna have to eat healthy from now on.
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Maybe it's cause you over gorged yourself. Instead of having a reasonable amount in moderation? 🤷🏼♀️🤔16
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Nice job learning about yourself. Make modifications from what you've learned and keep moving forward!4
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Chef_Barbell wrote: »Maybe it's cause you over gorged yourself. Instead of having a reasonable amount in moderation? 🤷🏼♀️🤔
I didn't though. I actually didn't eat that much.1 -
OnlyDragonQueen wrote: »Chef_Barbell wrote: »Maybe it's cause you over gorged yourself. Instead of having a reasonable amount in moderation? 🤷🏼♀️🤔
I didn't though. I actually didn't eat that much.
Seemed like a full day of treating yourself. 🤷🏼♀️0 -
Chef_Barbell wrote: »Maybe it's cause you over gorged yourself. Instead of having a reasonable amount in moderation? 🤷🏼♀️🤔
In a way, that helps put a person off. I did it on purpose before starting my diet over 2 months ago. Stuffed myself on junk to pain. Haven't cheated and fallen off at all. I dread the thought of feeling unwell from it.
Decided a while back I'll be cheating on Xmas, but as the date draws nearer, I'm not sure I want to.
Hell, I had a really bad day a couple days ago, one of my birds came close to death. Instead of hitting the sugar, I had a cigarette (haven't smoked one in 2 years), and 7 shots of Vodka (though I only felt a bit of calm from it, not enough to be a buzz even - likely too much adrenaline or something).
I hurt myself when I'm in emotional pain see and in this case a sugar and junk binge could have happened as I'd *want* to feel awful. CBT prevents physical harm pretty well, so it was cigarettes and alcohol I substituted.7 -
I didn't gorge, at least I don't think I did in the sense that I consider gorging. I did eat more bad food then I should have, perhaps once that day bad would have been better for sure. I didn't eat that much overall though. Calorie wise I was still under budget, and food wise I only had two slices of pizza, a garlic knot, and six chicken tenders ALL day. The cheese its were about a handful, maybe. I eat more quantity wise on a daily basis, just not things that are greasy and filled with calories.
I don't know why I did it, maybe just naturally reverting to bad habits when it's a weekend. I will save I'm proud I only grabbed one slice each time, instead of 2 or 3 I used to have eaten, and I didn't get fries or a soda with my wendys. Baby steps, I guess3 -
Maybe change your frame of mind about food. The placebo effect is strong.5
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Larkspur94 wrote: »Chef_Barbell wrote: »Maybe it's cause you over gorged yourself. Instead of having a reasonable amount in moderation? 🤷🏼♀️🤔
In a way, that helps put a person off. I did it on purpose before starting my diet over 2 months ago. Stuffed myself on junk to pain. Haven't cheated and fallen off at all. I dread the thought of feeling unwell from it.
Decided a while back I'll be cheating on Xmas, but as the date draws nearer, I'm not sure I want to.
Hell, I had a really bad day a couple days ago, one of my birds came close to death. Instead of hitting the sugar, I had a cigarette (haven't smoked one in 2 years), and 7 shots of Vodka (though I only felt a bit of calm from it, not enough to be a buzz even - likely too much adrenaline or something).
I hurt myself when I'm in emotional pain see and in this case a sugar and junk binge could have happened as I'd *want* to feel awful. CBT prevents physical harm pretty well, so it was cigarettes and alcohol I substituted.
None of this sounds like a healthy way to operate.7 -
OnlyDragonQueen wrote: »I didn't gorge, at least I don't think I did in the sense that I consider gorging. I did eat more bad food then I should have, perhaps once that day bad would have been better for sure. I didn't eat that much overall though. Calorie wise I was still under budget, and food wise I only had two slices of pizza, a garlic knot, and six chicken tenders ALL day. The cheese its were about a handful, maybe. I eat more quantity wise on a daily basis, just not things that are greasy and filled with calories.
I don't know why I did it, maybe just naturally reverting to bad habits when it's a weekend. I will save I'm proud I only grabbed one slice each time, instead of 2 or 3 I used to have eaten, and I didn't get fries or a soda with my wendys. Baby steps, I guess
The point is you ate an entire day full of foods you don't typically eat anymore. Probably a lot more fat & grease than your system is used to dealing with. If you had just had a two slices of pizza for dinner and eaten your now regular food the rest of the day, you might have been fine.
Anyway, everyone has to figure out what their body likes to digest for themselves. I find it fairly easy to fit in a fast food lunch or a pizza dinner every once and awhile without any repercussions. I do better fitting in a reasonable portion of treat foods almost every day. Others are different. If you can't see yourself cutting those types of foods out for the rest of your life, next time limit it to one meal's worth, with normal food the rest of the day and see what happens. Otherwise, if your goal was to cut them out entirely, I guess you have more motivation now!8 -
Larkspur94 wrote: »Chef_Barbell wrote: »Maybe it's cause you over gorged yourself. Instead of having a reasonable amount in moderation? 🤷🏼♀️🤔
In a way, that helps put a person off. I did it on purpose before starting my diet over 2 months ago. Stuffed myself on junk to pain. Haven't cheated and fallen off at all. I dread the thought of feeling unwell from it.
Decided a while back I'll be cheating on Xmas, but as the date draws nearer, I'm not sure I want to.
Hell, I had a really bad day a couple days ago, one of my birds came close to death. Instead of hitting the sugar, I had a cigarette (haven't smoked one in 2 years), and 7 shots of Vodka (though I only felt a bit of calm from it, not enough to be a buzz even - likely too much adrenaline or something).
I hurt myself when I'm in emotional pain see and in this case a sugar and junk binge could have happened as I'd *want* to feel awful. CBT prevents physical harm pretty well, so it was cigarettes and alcohol I substituted.
I don't know if this is what you are saying, but if you're saying that a cigarette and 7 shots is a better reaction to stress than eating some junk food, I would respectfully disagree.12 -
I’ve been eating sensibly for a couple of months, until the last few days.....it was chorus concert week so my schedule went to heck. I even stopped for a late night Big Mac. With fries. And regretted it the next morning. Yuck. Back to sanity...call ncerts are over. My body sure will let me know when something was not a good idea. I need to listen to that better!1
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OnlyDragonQueen wrote: »I didn't gorge, at least I don't think I did in the sense that I consider gorging. I did eat more bad food then I should have, perhaps once that day bad would have been better for sure. I didn't eat that much overall though. Calorie wise I was still under budget, and food wise I only had two slices of pizza, a garlic knot, and six chicken tenders ALL day. The cheese its were about a handful, maybe. I eat more quantity wise on a daily basis, just not things that are greasy and filled with calories.
I don't know why I did it, maybe just naturally reverting to bad habits when it's a weekend. I will save I'm proud I only grabbed one slice each time, instead of 2 or 3 I used to have eaten, and I didn't get fries or a soda with my wendys. Baby steps, I guess
This is what you need to focus on. You had a day where you went outside the norm with food choices, and you managed to stay under calories and moderate your intake, rather than eating all the foods because they were there. The ability to do that is what is going to help you be successful in weight loss and maintenance. You did great.
And I hear you about the fast food. Fast food and I are not friends. I thought we were until we broke up, then I realized just how bad I felt when it was part of my diet. Now it's only something I eat when there are no other options available.5 -
OnlyDragonQueen wrote: »I love food. I believe many people that are overweight tend to.
I love food too, and I think many people who are not overweight also do (although not caring about food probably makes it easier not to overindulge).
I will say that I don't really think of the foods that you mentioned overeating in the past and as the "bad foods" (that's not a concept I find helpful) you indulged on this past day to be especially amazing foods -- mostly they are high in fat and salt and super convenient.
For me -- and perhaps this won't be helpful for you, but maybe it will be -- it is important NOT to think that I either eat foods that are delicious ("bad foods") or foods that are healthy, but to realize that you can have a healthful diet that is filled with delicious foods (and if you still crave Dominos on occasion to fit that in too).
Expanding one's palate and eating a lot of foods that meet nutritional needs does not have to mean not enjoying what you eat. So because you mention loving food being a bad thing and a mental state pushing you to have a whole day that sounds pretty unhealthful -- not that that's a big deal once in a while except you felt bad -- I am going to ask whether you are enjoying the foods you are choosing now.
For me, one thing that was really helpful was to use loving food as a tool toward being able to stick to my calorie plan -- I can cook foods I love (and love experimenting with cooking things and seeing how tasty I can make them) that also meet my nutritional needs and fit within my calories. I like going out to good restaurants to get ideas about how I can try to do things at home.
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OnlyDragonQueen wrote: »I didn't gorge, at least I don't think I did in the sense that I consider gorging. I did eat more bad food then I should have, perhaps once that day bad would have been better for sure. I didn't eat that much overall though. Calorie wise I was still under budget, and food wise I only had two slices of pizza, a garlic knot, and six chicken tenders ALL day. The cheese its were about a handful, maybe. I eat more quantity wise on a daily basis, just not things that are greasy and filled with calories.
I don't know why I did it, maybe just naturally reverting to bad habits when it's a weekend. I will save I'm proud I only grabbed one slice each time, instead of 2 or 3 I used to have eaten, and I didn't get fries or a soda with my wendys. Baby steps, I guess
The point is you ate an entire day full of foods you don't typically eat anymore. Probably a lot more fat & grease than your system is used to dealing with. If you had just had a two slices of pizza for dinner and eaten your now regular food the rest of the day, you might have been fine.
Anyway, everyone has to figure out what their body likes to digest for themselves. I find it fairly easy to fit in a fast food lunch or a pizza dinner every once and awhile without any repercussions. I do better fitting in a reasonable portion of treat foods almost every day. Others are different. If you can't see yourself cutting those types of foods out for the rest of your life, next time limit it to one meal's worth, with normal food the rest of the day and see what happens. Otherwise, if your goal was to cut them out entirely, I guess you have more motivation now!
Yeah my goal isn't to cut it out entirely just be mindful of it, and minimize. I should have only had the slice at dinner and been good. Was just making excuses and eating easy so i could be lazy1 -
Larkspur94 wrote: »Hell, I had a really bad day a couple days ago, one of my birds came close to death. Instead of hitting the sugar, I had a cigarette (haven't smoked one in 2 years), and 7 shots of Vodka (though I only felt a bit of calm from it, not enough to be a buzz even - likely too much adrenaline or something).
I hurt myself when I'm in emotional pain see and in this case a sugar and junk binge could have happened as I'd *want* to feel awful. CBT prevents physical harm pretty well, so it was cigarettes and alcohol I substituted.
Assuming you're still in therapy, I would really talk to your therapist about this. I am all about harm reduction, but cigarettes and 7 shots of vodka is a way of harming yourself. That you didn't feel a buzz (or drunk for that matter) from that but only calm is also concerning. I would note to that, while you didn't binge on sugar, you did binge on alcohol with the National Institute on Alcohol Abuse and Alcoholism definition of binge drinking being, "pattern of drinking that brings a person’s blood alcohol concentration (BAC) to 0.08 grams percent or above. This typically happens when men consume 5 or more drinks or women consume 4 or more drinks in about 2 hours." and the NHS' definition being "consuming more than 6 units of alcohol in a single session for men and women." Depending on how big those shots were, you had upwards of 11 units of alcohol.
Again, I do have an understanding of self harm, but I really think you need to talk to someone if you think that turning to alcohol in excess (and the above counts as that) is a good substitute to turning to sugar in excess.5 -
OnlyDragonQueen wrote: »OnlyDragonQueen wrote: »I didn't gorge, at least I don't think I did in the sense that I consider gorging. I did eat more bad food then I should have, perhaps once that day bad would have been better for sure. I didn't eat that much overall though. Calorie wise I was still under budget, and food wise I only had two slices of pizza, a garlic knot, and six chicken tenders ALL day. The cheese its were about a handful, maybe. I eat more quantity wise on a daily basis, just not things that are greasy and filled with calories.
I don't know why I did it, maybe just naturally reverting to bad habits when it's a weekend. I will save I'm proud I only grabbed one slice each time, instead of 2 or 3 I used to have eaten, and I didn't get fries or a soda with my wendys. Baby steps, I guess
The point is you ate an entire day full of foods you don't typically eat anymore. Probably a lot more fat & grease than your system is used to dealing with. If you had just had a two slices of pizza for dinner and eaten your now regular food the rest of the day, you might have been fine.
Anyway, everyone has to figure out what their body likes to digest for themselves. I find it fairly easy to fit in a fast food lunch or a pizza dinner every once and awhile without any repercussions. I do better fitting in a reasonable portion of treat foods almost every day. Others are different. If you can't see yourself cutting those types of foods out for the rest of your life, next time limit it to one meal's worth, with normal food the rest of the day and see what happens. Otherwise, if your goal was to cut them out entirely, I guess you have more motivation now!
Yeah my goal isn't to cut it out entirely just be mindful of it, and minimize. I should have only had the slice at dinner and been good. Was just making excuses and eating easy so i could be lazy
If I spent a day eating high fat/high sugar foods and not balancing it out with some whole foods (fruits, veg, even a steak or chicken), I would feel pretty gross too. Thing is, this is a process. I'd like to say that next time you're feeling like this you'll make different choices. Maybe you will, maybe you won't. Do keep some notes on how you are feeling and what you think may be contributing to the emotional components of eating like this. As you start finding patterns, you can start finding alternatives. Maybe you need to do some batch cooking and then freeze some single serving meals for yourself. Then when you want something that is quick grab and go, you have alternatives. It's can be a long process (took me 2 years to be able to have anything more than a single serving of ice cream in the house) but it is well worth it. Additionally, remember that you are human, and therefore, things are going to happen. Don't be too hard on yourself. What would you say to a friend who came to you with this same issue?5 -
Larkspur94 wrote: »Chef_Barbell wrote: »Maybe it's cause you over gorged yourself. Instead of having a reasonable amount in moderation? 🤷🏼♀️🤔
In a way, that helps put a person off. I did it on purpose before starting my diet over 2 months ago. Stuffed myself on junk to pain. Haven't cheated and fallen off at all. I dread the thought of feeling unwell from it.
Decided a while back I'll be cheating on Xmas, but as the date draws nearer, I'm not sure I want to.
Hell, I had a really bad day a couple days ago, one of my birds came close to death. Instead of hitting the sugar, I had a cigarette (haven't smoked one in 2 years), and 7 shots of Vodka (though I only felt a bit of calm from it, not enough to be a buzz even - likely too much adrenaline or something).
I hurt myself when I'm in emotional pain see and in this case a sugar and junk binge could have happened as I'd *want* to feel awful. CBT prevents physical harm pretty well, so it was cigarettes and alcohol I substituted.
I'm sorry, but if CBT were preventing harm, you wouldn't be smoking and binge drinking as a coping mechanism. I can't believe anyone (who isn't dealing with substance abuse issues) would think that was less harmful than eating a chocolate bar. I hope you are still in treatment and continue to do so.6 -
OnlyDragonQueen wrote: »OnlyDragonQueen wrote: »I didn't gorge, at least I don't think I did in the sense that I consider gorging. I did eat more bad food then I should have, perhaps once that day bad would have been better for sure. I didn't eat that much overall though. Calorie wise I was still under budget, and food wise I only had two slices of pizza, a garlic knot, and six chicken tenders ALL day. The cheese its were about a handful, maybe. I eat more quantity wise on a daily basis, just not things that are greasy and filled with calories.
I don't know why I did it, maybe just naturally reverting to bad habits when it's a weekend. I will save I'm proud I only grabbed one slice each time, instead of 2 or 3 I used to have eaten, and I didn't get fries or a soda with my wendys. Baby steps, I guess
The point is you ate an entire day full of foods you don't typically eat anymore. Probably a lot more fat & grease than your system is used to dealing with. If you had just had a two slices of pizza for dinner and eaten your now regular food the rest of the day, you might have been fine.
Anyway, everyone has to figure out what their body likes to digest for themselves. I find it fairly easy to fit in a fast food lunch or a pizza dinner every once and awhile without any repercussions. I do better fitting in a reasonable portion of treat foods almost every day. Others are different. If you can't see yourself cutting those types of foods out for the rest of your life, next time limit it to one meal's worth, with normal food the rest of the day and see what happens. Otherwise, if your goal was to cut them out entirely, I guess you have more motivation now!
Yeah my goal isn't to cut it out entirely just be mindful of it, and minimize. I should have only had the slice at dinner and been good. Was just making excuses and eating easy so i could be lazy
I get it. I'm naturally lazy and have to fight that instinct every day, and I can can sell myself some mind boggling excuses! Just keep paying attention and learning, like a little experiment. You'll figure it out!5
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