Lost and in need of direction and some support

RulaAsaad

Hello everyone,

I gained a lot of weight in the 7th grade (20kg in one year) and that's when I started hearing that I was "chubby" the oh so loved word people use here to describe a fat person without hurting their feelings. but it did.

Here I am today, about 11 years later, in my healthy weight range and healthy fat %. my highest weight reached 59kg and now I'm on 54kg. I like my weight like this especially because my face is ba it fuller than last year (52kg) and I don't really feel like losing weight.

However, the words fat and chubby still haunt me. I feel like I need to stick to the gym 5 days a week, go running and swimming and lifting weights until I get a body of a supermodel (which can never happen- my body refuses to go under 52kg).

I keep telling myself that I reached a good weight, I should just tone my body up and start maintaining. Two problems with this-
A. I'm scared of maintenance and the thought of eating more than 1200 calories a day freaks me out. All in my head I know!!
B. I worry that if I start toning my body my face will lose its fat- then what?!

How should I deal with things?

H2596

It seems you have more of a mind over matter issue than anything else. Have you researched maintenance goals and how to stay with in your target range for life?

Well done on the journey so far and good luck with the maintenance. As you’ve found it’s actually much harder than the losing weight stage.