"Out, damned fat! Out, I say!" (Milk-Shakespeare)

Vastaesolitudines
Vastaesolitudines Posts: 12
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Hi everyone,

I'm Lucie, 19, and I'm from France, and I am 5"8. Well, I've decided for 7 days to change my life and to drop 24 lbs. I know my title sounds odd, but that's pretty much what I'm trying to do. But unlike the poor Lady Macbeth, I really intend to achieve this goal.
According to IBM, I am not overweight. I am "normal". Nevertheless, I wonder what are the criteria to define oneself as "normal": I used to be skinny, muscular, and confident. When I was sixteen, I did not pay attention to what I was eating, I was acting as I always acted. And I put on 13 kilos. It has been four years that I am dealing with it, trying to come back to my former shape. It has been four years that I am completely self-conscious. It has been three years that I did not buy new clothes. It has been three years I feel like crap when I see photos of me or when I'm besides someone who seems better than me - partly because he or she's skinnier than me.
Actually, I barely stand the loving glance of my beloved and loving boyfriend, and I could not stand inquisitive glances. I did not want people staring at me.

I decided that is time to change. I want to come back to 58 kgs. I am full of fears, and I need support because I do not really trust myself, even if I know I can do it (:

Nice to meet you all!

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  • KarenJanine
    KarenJanine Posts: 3,497 Member
    As you are already a normal weight, and as 58kg is pretty low for 5'8", your body won't give up the weight easily. Be realistic in your expectations as you may have set your goal too low. When you were 16 your body was still growing and developing so aiming to be the weight you were as a teenager may not be a healthy goal.
  • Vastaesolitudines
    Vastaesolitudines Posts: 12
    I reached the 5"8 at fourteen, hence the feeling of not being really satisfied with my weight at 19 (:
    I know it will be difficult, and I am absolutely not rejecting possibilities of weighing a little more if I see satisfying results on the measuring tape!
    Unlike during my former attempts, I show much more clemency towards my body now and I do not consider a "diet" like a race anymore (I say, my mind grew more slowly than my body!), nor starving! I love food.

    Moreover, I am actually following courses in order to pass competitive exams. It's really hard, very exhausting, and I intend to stay efficient, and therefore, healthy.

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