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ktsherman77

Maybe this time I will actually suck it up and keep the momentum going. Six years ago I lost 60 pounds. I weighed 181 pounds, and then gained it all back. I have been down on myself ever since, to the point where I wish I had never lost it, so I didn't know what it was like to feel better about myself. It's been 6 years of just beating myself up and depressed for not maintaining and being better to my body. I've tried over and over again but could never get back into the swing of things like I had before. I want this time to be different. I'm trying to find motivation from as many sources as I can. Using my anxiety and stressful life to help keep the intensity alive and kicking. I have made goals, set standards and put my health first. I have been working on this since the beginning of December because I didn't want make this a resolution. No one ever keeps New Years resolutions, and I didn't want this to be another resolution I wasn't going to keep. When I can't walk that extra lap I tell myself to suck it up, stop being a baby and get your *kitten* in gear. When I can't do that last rep I tell myself, if I don't then I am giving up. Don't be a quitter. I am not giving up, I am not going to quit. No more excuses, no more blaming other people for my issues. No more blaming other people for my problem and not following through with things. If I fail it's because I failed. If I succeed it's because I found the way to make it work. Do it for myself, because no one is going to do it for me ...….and here....we.....go