An Act of Self Care

noodlesno

I am not sure what started me off on this weight loss journey, not self-care or love. Probably loneliness from being a 270lbs single women, I thought that if I lost weight I wouldn't need to be single any more.

Over the last 9 months, I have learnt some really important things. I stand today almost 90lbs lighter but also realise that I have not cared for myself either when I was bigger or now I am smaller. When I was bigger I gave my body limited nutrients, smoked, drank to excess and never exercise. Now, I beat it exhaustion in the gym 6 days a week, limit the kcals it needs by 1000 a day, carry on through broken bones and sheer mental and physical exhaustion.

Today this stops. This body and mind are incredible. They have got me this far. I am not longer going chase the number down on the scale constantly trying to overachieve my 1% per week goal. I will keep going to my final goal but I am going to be gentle. I am going to give myself space and love I need. I will look now to be more achievable at 1lb a week, however, not get upset or beat myself up if I don't get there. I am going to look after myself and the incredible body that has put up with so much.

Sorry not sure why I am putting this all out there on this message board but I think I just need to hold myself to account.

Here is to tomorrow and actually giving myself a bit of self-care.

girlwithcurls2

Sounds like you learned a valuable lesson. You are now your own best friend ❤️

fitbethlin

I needed to see this today. I have a habit of losing weight by hating myself and thinking about how much I hate my overweight-self. I am trying to figure out how to get my head in the right place - have accountability and standards, but have compassion for myself.