I've done this before (but it's not deja vu)

JadeAmberD

Weight has been a struggle my whole life. Yo yo diets, disordered thoughts and eating, fad after fad after failure. In my "adult" life I've lost to a low of 135 (what i weighed as an overweight 12 year old) and gained to a high of 210. Although at this high i wasn't happy with my physical form at all, I was the happiest I'd been in years so I stopped focusing on my weight as it crept over 200.

But this summer something changed. After a few miles of hiking (something I love doing in warm but not hot weather) a new pain showed up. Over the next few weeks a nagging knee pain became a new part of my life. Some weeks it's a quiet ache. Some days it's a stinging pain that won't allow me to bare weight.
I may be fat, but I've always been physical. This new issue has been making work a challenge (my job isn't sedentary) and taking away from my ability to enjoy certain activities, namely hiking as I'm nervous of being unable to put weight on a leg suddenly miles into a trail.
My whole family is heavy with bad knees. Both my 30ish and my 14 year old brother have needed knee surgeries.
I know taking excess weight off my knee will help and it should help my bad back as well.
So happy with everything but constant pain I've come back to make weight loss not a battle, but a journey. I think this will be one of the biggest challenges in my life because I've never been able to have a healthy relationship with food or weight before.

angelsja

My highest was 210lb lowest I've managed to get to was 159lbs I'm back up to 185lbs bad hips run in my family band I suffer with sciatica so I know where your coming from with the pain and losing weight to help ease it off. I love to eat I've always love to eat my mum used to say I had hollow legs since I never seemed to be full I have never been happy with the way I look and worry what will happen if I do lose the weight and I'm still not happy.

kodiakke

Welcome! So long as you keep trying, you haven't quit. I too have been a "fat but physical" person, and I can tell you, being below 200 does an amazing thing for your joints. And today is a GREAT day to make a change. C'mon in and join the club! We party to our health.

JadeAmberD

@angelsja that's always a fear of mine. That losing won't help the situation. Working out and losing with pain is definitely a unique challenge. Thank you for sharing your experience with it. Know we can do this

JadeAmberD

@kodiakke I'm glad to know I'm not alone in the realm of fat but physical! My doctors love to tell me eat less move more. I'm sure it helps but there is not much more time in the day to move with 😂
I'm happy to make this change