Working through the delusion

kppgreen

When I turned 30 I was at my heaviest weighing 220 lbs, I'm 5' 7". I got down to about 145 lbs and I was feeling great! I managed to keep most of it off but over the past 6 months I've allowed weight to creep back on.
I liken it to the appearance people have of themselves in the Matrix (the movie). I had a concept of myself and I didn't really see the weight... Even at 220lbs. So there are several excuses I can rattle off but it doesn't change the fact that I've but on 40 lbs over the course of a few months.
I recently took the red pill when I was getting ready for a big interview I have this week. I knew I had gained weight so I ordered a larger size of pant for my interview. As I'm getting ready I realize that the larger size I ordered doesn't fit... I cannot procure an even larger size in time. I will have to drive myself 4 hrs to the interview, present myself for a promotion, and then drive myself back all while hating myself for allowing this to happen.
Nothing I do right now is going to change my interview this week. But it's not just about the interview, it's about my life and my health.