Realisation over my old weight

ThinMints0319

I thought about it because it didn't seem right to me...Didn't ring true for me. It wasn't.

My lowest weight was 96 lbs.
I remember being under 70lbs and saying I had to stay under. I just had to.
I wasn't even 8 y/o.
I remember seeing I was almost 100 lbs. I was 96.
I wasn't yet 10 y/o.

That was the first really legitimate time I had issues with my body and ate less to get smaller/maintain. I have been unknowingly struggling with anorexia since I was 9 years old.
10 almost 11 years. No wonder I think life is pointless-not to be depressing-. 10 years of attempting to lose weight or end myself...Geezus! At least I know my real Lowest weight!

I'm not interested in getting back to double digits but I would like not to see the second number anything higher than a 2.



**Also not suicidal, just kind of wandering.

ThinMints0319

"My lowest weight was 96 lbs, not 119 lbs." is what I meant.

ThinMints0319

So I put this in the wrong place and can't edit the topic or delete it. So that's great...

nutmegoreo

You can flag it, report, and click "this is my post" and ask for it to be moved or deleted, as you wish. It may take a little while depending on who's around.