Between a rock and a hard place

emmacm1104

Had to gain weight due to amenorrhea and malnourishment/overexercise problems...I gained a few pounds yet am very unhappy the way I look and continue to restrict food and calories. How do I learn to love my body? This morning I wouldn't let myself have bread and had this for breakfast: strawberries (like 5), about third a cup 0% greek yogurt, a bunch of peanut butter (literally eat it out of the jar lol, probably like 3 tablespoons), an apple, and some oats (like 1 tablespoon).

I am scared I am overeating yet don't know if it is okay in my situation. Am I overeating? I thought it was a healthy balanced breakfast since there's lots of fiber, protein, and all the sugar is natural.

texasredreb

I'm sorry for what you are going through. I can't possibly answer your questions because I'm not a trained professional. I highly suggest you pose these questions to your medical team. Best of luck to you.

cmriverside

yeah, I agree with texasred, please keep in close contact with your medical team.

forestfreek

Disordered eating is almost never about food. As I’m sure you may already know it’s almost always a symptom of underlying emotional issues. Until you address those problems it will continue to be a struggle to see food and your body in a healthy way. It is possible to recover from this. Do you have any health care professionals that you’ve disclosed this to or are working with? Huge hugs to you. It’s a scary journey but you’re not alone 💜💜💜

csplatt

This does not sound like a healthy website and forum for someone with your struggles. Hugs.

grimendale

This sounds like disordered eating to me. I struggled with orthorexia after college, and I still struggle with dismorphic body issues. If you haven't already, I'd recommend reaching out to a doctor who specializes in disordered eating. It's a struggle, but it is possible to move past it.