Tried to stop counting

lucadeangiles

After over a year of meticulously counting calories and measuring my food and weighing myself, I decided it was time to delete mfp. I’ve been maintaining for a long time and have a good understanding of healthy eating and what my body needs. The app was starting to have too much control of my life. I planned my days around when and what I would eat. I deleted the app on thursday and planned to just keep eating as I had been, just without weighing and measuring and obsessing.

As you can tell by my posting this, I am back on the app. I totally failed eating normally. I had one little treat thursday morning and suddenly I felt like I messed up the whole day. My brain went into *kitten* it mode and i’ve been binging all weekend. I’ve probably eaten close to 4-5000 calories every day since then. I don’t know if I should give it some more time and let myself adjust to not tracking, or if I should come back and try just loosely counting calories. I don’t want this app to influence my eating forever but I clearly can’t make smart food choices without it. I just feel so discouraged and disgusted with myself

I don’t want to restrict or punish myself or try to offset this with any extreme methods, I might drop by 200 or so calories for a couple weeks until I’m back to my normal weight. I’m also not going to weigh myself for a week or so, I know the number on the scale right now is higher than I’d like to see and I’ll wait to look at it until the water weight is gone and I have a realistic idea of how much fat I’ve gained

Now i’m going to bed, stomach full of a pint of ice cream and a cup of oatmeal (weird craving)😓.

Back to normal when I wake up

emeraldwoods4214

I’m sorry that you’re struggling with this
I’ve also had struggles with eating patterns, bingeing, going on and off of diets.... etc etc
Sometimes I also wonder.... can I just learn to eat intuitively again like how I used to when I was a child? Can I just eat when hungry and stop when full and be at a healthy weight for my body and accept myself the way I am?
But here I am on this app, trying to regulate myself with counting calories, and hoping to gain some support and motivation from others who are also on a similar journey.
We just need to be patient with ourselves, and keep thinking about our goals so we can stay on track! We got this! 😁
Please message me anytime and we can support each other on this crazy ride we call life

Diatonic12

The biggest mistake I made was believing someone who's never had an issue with with weight or food (supposedly) that the scales, calories and portions don't matter. They do matter and we aren't fixed once all of the extra weight is gone. Intuitive eating is for the birds and wild critters. Left to my own intuition I would be right back where I started. There's no shame in tracking your data points. None whatsoever.