Exceeded my goal and then..
Siege_Tank
Posts: 781 Member
I've been at this game for a while. Took me a forever to figure out how to stop deceiving myself and accurately count every bit of food I was eating. Had to learn all about abstaining from alcohol and other distractions that I used to replace my food cravings. But I did it. My original goal weight was 150, down from 215. I hit 147 about a year ago, and I was elated, overjoyed. But then I started looking in the mirror. I based my goal weight on images of other success story people around my same height. Everyone I knew and saw on a regular basis would say things like "hey, you're lookin good" but, they treated me the same. I had this expectation that once I lost my fat I would be more accepted in social circles, become more popular/get less *kitten* socially.
It was so discouraging to see that I looked almost exactly the same as when I started, there was just less of me everywhere. It seemed like a negative feedback loop, every time I tried to gain muscle my hunger would win after a few days of strict discipline and I'd become strongman lookin. I finally gave up for about 6 months and turned to alcohol to plug the reward holes I wanted filled.
I'm back and more determined than ever to hit my aesthetic goals and finally enter a competition and conquer my fears. Biggest question is how do I reward myself? I've tried about everything imaginable and it seems like it's akin to the problem of being unable to tickle oneself. Thanks for reading, and any thoughts are appreciated.
It was so discouraging to see that I looked almost exactly the same as when I started, there was just less of me everywhere. It seemed like a negative feedback loop, every time I tried to gain muscle my hunger would win after a few days of strict discipline and I'd become strongman lookin. I finally gave up for about 6 months and turned to alcohol to plug the reward holes I wanted filled.
I'm back and more determined than ever to hit my aesthetic goals and finally enter a competition and conquer my fears. Biggest question is how do I reward myself? I've tried about everything imaginable and it seems like it's akin to the problem of being unable to tickle oneself. Thanks for reading, and any thoughts are appreciated.
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