Need a Friend

BrettSmithEdwardDowney4586

Really could use a friend...help!

jaym619

Hi, are you ok
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BrettSmithEdwardDowney4586

Yeah, just depressed and lost. I wrote a long reply but for some reason it didn't post...ugh!

LyndaBSS

How can we help?

Wat84

Happy to help..... I have sent you a friend request......

BrettSmithEdwardDowney4586

Don't even know where to begin. Feeling lost in my life, don't know my purpose. Been having trouble staying on focus with my exercise and nutrition. Lately I am lucky to work out once a week (mostly weights and body exercise) and been eating wrong.I have too many health issues not to. Got Sugar, High BP, Lymphedema, arthritis, feet nerve pain, obease, depression& anxiety.
Man I wish the long post I made would have posted. It explained it all so well. Don't have it in me to type it all again. Basicly I recently ditched all social media due to negativity, my son just graduated and is moving on with work and college (great kid, honor student) My wife works. Great relationship. With my media gone, which was bad for me and I it, my social paths are now super limited. Thus this thread.

I am disabled, 51 year old failed musician, now with my son moving on, I am kinda lost. Ship has sailed with music. I have mobility issues and spend much of my time in a chair. Depression hitting me hard. Health is wrecked. Great family, but it's not enough. Wanted so much more out of my life, but my health has held me back. When they are both not home, just have idle time, and think too much I guess.
The few good friends I have live away from me, have their own lives. No one close to me to talk with, all family either dead or estranged.
It's all just frustrating.
We live pay to pay, so money is tight or I'd get a trainer. Would love to swim, but costs too much for membership at the few local places we have.
My weight is 529....I did weigh 589 a few years ago, had sleeve operation, got down to 439. Then had 10 pound mass taken off my leg. Was on a wound vac for months, which really set me back. My stomach has stretched back out, so I have little help from my operation now. With my mobility, it's hard to do cardio to help me. And I have looked into and tried it all...trust me. Just at wits end.
Really just need people to talk to. My son has his life, I don't want to bring him down with it all. My wife is an introvert, great listener, just not good with expressing advice.
I must sound like a train wreck...dont mind putting it all out there. Maybe it will help someone else to see my struggles.
Thanks for asking.