Depressed and comfort eating

cda4aib

hello all
today finds me depressed and comfort eating. So far I've kept within my keto boundaries but recent days have been over in calorie count. I know it slows my progress but my heart hurts. OK i will just come out with it. I am a failure.
what would make me say that? I am "a force to be reckoned with" has been used to describe me. I have many accomplishments. I have not had an income in about a year now. Some recent experiences have shown me the darkness in others. it was daunting to think people would be sabotaging me (or anyone) intentionally.
I picked right up and kept moving. I fell down. I got back up. repeat. And now I find myself picking up again but this time I cant stop crying. I know I will sit and sob till I'm done and get right back up again but I cant seem to make the money flow. I work with insurance coverages and cant get my momentum going. I know if I could just crack this bad boy open I could get going again. I cant stop crying.
Lets face it I am accustomed to being the provider. I am accustomed to making thins happen for my family. And of course none of them know how I feel. My husband is great at providing but he looks at me different. I am failing him. I've NEVER failed. Anything. So why cant I stop crying?

tearful

LyndaBSS

Please show your husband your post. He needs to know how you feel. He may pleasantly surprise you with his response.

You're not failing anyone. Get that thought out of your head.

Yes, I know firsthand how you feel. I also suffer from anxiety and depression, since I lost my husband to ALS last year. Yesterday and today are particularly rough.

cda4aib

I am very sorry for your loss. I understand it all too well. The first year really is the hardest. From there it becomes easier, but never goes away. But you've done well. You have made it through the worst of it. May your life be full of blessings.