Newbie...sort of...but here :)

IceQueen2023

So I used MFP for a while etc and just let life keep hitting me. I famously kept saying "this CANT get any worse".

Well. It did.

So after my marriage & my body fell apart I became a robot. Only about my kids. Their future. Being mom & dad. Their emotions. Hiding my illnesses until I had to go on chemo and twenty-some-odd medications. Seizures. Etc. It was a spiral. I haven't lifted in 2 years, some days I could barely move. Ugly.

Then found out my ex was getting a house on my birthday and I said that's it. He left and we're picking up the pieces but he's in perfect shape, has a great six figure job, dates, etc. My son is an athlete and my 17 yo daughter just started Engineering in college. I need to be here, in shape, healthy (as possible). Not heavy, winded, tired, hurting etc. My illnesses mean I have to be careful but they dont mean I'm dead.

Before my focus was keeping my husband, being hot...then finding a man, etc. I was doing it for the wrong reasons.

Now my focus is to live and be a good mom/role model, to be able to play with them, teach them to ride bikes (ex didn't), go sledding, ziplining, etc.

So I'm back and using my daughter pursuing her dreams to work on being a better woman.