hello, kind of new here

I've been here before but I needed motivation to lose weight over the next few months to go back to school to train as a performer. I love to sing, dance and starting to learn to do aerial acrobatics-including pole dance which is a lot harder than it looks lol. I hope to be auditioning for companies too at the end of the training course which is another motivation because I don't really feel comfortable in my skin completely and I feel I can't bring my 100% out as I am even when people say I have a beautiful voice or am an amazing dancer that gets things quickly. in my mind I feel like I'll always be looked over for my weight and I want that to change. I currently weight 177 lbs and my goal weight is 113 lbs.