I've been unhappy with my body for a long time, I have a really unhealthy relationship with food and spent years hating myself for always feeling like I was eating too much.
This January I finally decided to try and lose weight the right way. I went slow and started off with simply replacing some unhealthy foods I was eating with something better, slowly I built up to smaller portions and a caloric deficit. I've been exercising regularly and now a couple of weeks ago I decided to give intermittent fasting a try to see if it would help me stay within my calorie range. So far I think it really has helped but still I'm having a lot of trouble with staying within my deficit which is 1230 calories a day (for reference I'm 5"2). I'm currently 110 pounds (started at 116) and my goal is 100-103 I don't know if I'm being extreme.
I keep beating myself up over eating too many calories and I can feel myself becoming obsessive, which brings me to the question, is it even healthy for me to count calories when I have a history of disordered eating?
I'm wondering if I should make my eating window smaller for intermittent fasting and just stop counting (currently I eat from 12pm to 8pm). Does anyone have any stories or tips on how they keep their mindset healthy while calorie counting?