Today is Day 1... (again)

I_Drank_All_The_Wine

Hi All,

Not exactly new to MFP, but it's been a few years.

I'll soon be 37 and I live in Cambridgeshire, UK. Originally from South Africa though.
Single with no children apart from my ridiculously cute male Yorkie. I work full time in the IT industry as a 'middle management' professional.

This isn't my first rodeo, but I have tried to go it alone for the last year and a half. Thinking I could change my mindset and habits, but that has gotten me nowhere.
I've put on weight instead of lost it. Now I find myself at my heaviest ever and for the first time, uncomfortable in my own skin.

Recently I have decided to face my denial head-on and realised that much like an alcoholic, I cannot go this journey alone or without help. I need support, meetings and weekly check-ins. I have come to accept that I will never be able to do this without apps, friends, support and holding myself accountable. Much like someone with a drinking or drug problem trying to quit alone without AA or NA. I understand now that I will never be able to stop counting calories or doing some form of diet because every time I stop, the weight slowly creeps back... with interest.
This has to now be a lifetime commitment for me.

Feel free to add me or drop me a comment so that I may add you, would love to make some new friends along this journey.