I AM NOT SETTLING

albertha

The last two years have been devastating for my husband and myself we have lost our son in a car accident, we have lost close family and friends in death, my husband lost his job shortly after i resigned from work. I admit the lost of my son can not even compare to the latter. Prior to my world getting turned upside down, i ran our local half marathon every year. My son and i participated in the Susan G Komen January 2018, it was our last run together. i lost focus, hope, and gain 25 pounds. I am 5.3 inches and overweight. But am not settling. This is in no way easy, as i know grief does not have an expiration date. I am aware that i will never see my son again in this system, but i can fight to find myself (whatever that means)again.

KickassAmazon76

I cannot imagine how it feels to lose a child. I have two and even the thought causes my throat to close up and my eyes to well up.
Add all the rest on top,and I think that you are amazing to be where you are. Lesser things have driven people to their knees, and here you are... Standing.

25 pounds is doable. You can do this. Just give yourself enough grace to take the time and breaks you need to deal with the grief. Maybe the next runs you do will be therapy runs where you connect with your son emotionally. Maybe it'll come in the form of walks in nature. No matter what, realize that your strength is there, you're never alone.. And you CAN do this.

Wishing you all the best, and giving you non creepy stranger hugs. 💜

Chef_Barbell

*hugs* I also lost my oldest son this year in July to a car accident. He was 21. There are no words for the pain. No how to guide on how to deal and grieve. I let myself get into the world's biggest fog and gained 25 pounds myself since Covid-19 started. I recently gotten myself to grief counseling and back to the gym which started to help my mental stuff.