Why I am so frustrated/with pics

tiffanyalther

http://i1288.photobucket.com/albums/b489/Tiffany_Alther/Oct2008_zps44c42235.jpg

Oct 2008

http://i1288.photobucket.com/albums/b489/Tiffany_Alther/Snowcoming2010_zps5a7de39e.jpg

Jan 2009

http://i1288.photobucket.com/albums/b489/Tiffany_Alther/January2010_zps9ff49026.jpg

Jan 2009

http://i1288.photobucket.com/albums/b489/Tiffany_Alther/4abf3461-14b9-4dd9-8998-abf3096295e4_zps2d1feba0.jpg

May 2010

http://i1288.photobucket.com/albums/b489/Tiffany_Alther/Nov2011_zpse976f521.jpg

Nov 2011

http://i1288.photobucket.com/albums/b489/Tiffany_Alther/8c2311ae-103e-4f49-8a00-4c289258b1af_zps77ae0cb9.jpg

May 2012

http://i1288.photobucket.com/albums/b489/Tiffany_Alther/Sept2012_zpsbb2a3a0f.jpg

Sept 2012

And my profile pic is from this May.

My pant size keeps getting bigger and bigger but I feel the only time I looked thinner was when I went from 211lbs in May 2012 to 185 in Sept 2012. I was 209 in May of this yr and I feel like I look alright.. but I just have gotten bigger (I know most of these are not full body pics) But I don't feel like I look bigger but I obviously am since my pant size and weight are growing...

I have NO idea what I will look like if I hit my goal weight of 125.

The lowest I have been in the past 5 yrs was 180. And that was my first pic (Oct 2008, size 13 and Sept 2012, size 14)

deksgrl

How many calories are you eating, and what is your exercise routine (if any)? Do you weigh and measure food? What is your age, height, current weight? What were you doing when you got to your low weight that you are not doing now?