Always lose it at 200

Looking for a little motivation today. I’ve been 200-220 for the past 5 years now. Every time I “diet” I can lose the first 20 pounds or so. It’s a little struggle but it can be done. But AS SOON as I hit 199-198 I just lose it and gain everything back. It’s a mental block.

I also think I’m over restricting when I diet (dinner will be a bag of frozen veggies and a protein shake which is plenty filling, I HATE cooking/meal prep FWIW) and I just reach a point where I go nuts. But I’m not having luck finding that happy medium in eating enough to keep me from binging and being able to lose weight. I’ve tried meal prepping a few times and it’s always a bust. I just hate cooking. The most success I’ve ever had was on Nutrisystem (190+lbs down to 165) but that was years ago and it’s not replicating easily for whatever reason. I tried picking running back up but it makes me so doggone hungry even if I pack on the protein. I still horseback ride weekly and I’ve learned I HAVE to have a surplus of some kind for those rides or I’ll faint/vomit lol so I always eat a carb-y snack before I ride.

I’ve been to the doctor and my blood work is all normal. There’s no medical reason I can’t lose weight. I’m just hungry all the freaking time and when those cravings hit while I’m that hungry…

I feel like it’s in my head. I don’t intentionally think to myself “Oh, I’m under 200 so I can reward myself”, it just so happens that I snap in the middle of my diet lol. How do you guys do it?? I’ve even looked into weight loss surgery but I don’t think that will help if I can’t get over the cravings and me just going bonkers for a week or two. And when I say binge I mean I’ll have most of a medium sized pizza for dinner, some Twix, or a burger and potato chips, or Chipotle with chips, so some really bad stuff (Twix) but nothing suuuper crazy. Just too much of it too close together. I also have a desk job to the point where some days I’m lucky to get 2k steps in a day.

I’m currently around 206-208 and that number has had no interest in budging for the past week. I’m just a combination of over it and frustrated with myself.

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