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I Gained it Back.... Mostly

So,I never thought it would happen. After dropping around 90 lbs I promised myself I would NEVER gain it back. I never understood how people, after dropping a significant amount of weight, could just gain it back. But here I am, 60 lbs heavier feeling defeated and ashamed that I allowed myself to get back to where I used to be (mostly). I don't want to go outside, I don't want to go to family gatherings because I know, that the first thing that everyone will notice, and likely mention, is my weight gain. This seems to be the only topic of conversation between me and those I know (how much weight I've lost/how much weight I've gained). I feel like it's the only sense of substance that anyone sees. My major characteristic, the fat girl who lost weight. I will not take me gaining this weight back as a complete loss though, as I have learned a valuable lession from this. Weight loss and taking up less space does not make/keep you happy. It doesn't solve your problems. I won't necessarily make you love yourself. I have learned the importance of self acceptance and self love in all of my forms. So, perhaps this is my opportuniy, on my second weight loss journey, to practice self love and appreciate myself along the way. I worked hard to loose the weight the first time, thinking about doing it again exhausts and disappoints me but, one day at a time right....

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  • elisa123gal
    elisa123gal Posts: 4,363 Member
    I'll agree with the guy who pointed out..that most of us have gained weight during this strange stressful time of covid. I went to a gathering of people I have not seen in years; all of us were overweight. every single one of us.. It is because of the lockdown. Give yourself a break.. Also.. you did not gain it all back.. you are still down 30 pounds. Just pick yourself up ..like all of us are doing... and get back to it.. You can lose it again. Best to you.
  • vegan4lyfe2012
    vegan4lyfe2012 Posts: 1,289 Member
    Hang in there! I've lost twice and regained each time. Sending you a friend request so we can encourage each other (if you'd like to).