Is this all there is?

againwiththerelapsing

I can’t do this anymore I don’t want to do this anymore it’s so hard to keep going why can’t I just fall back and do what I used to what’s wrong with me I don’t want help and yet why am I posting this do I really not want help or do I just want attention things are so bad they’re so bad what do I do I can’t tell anyone I love I’m so disgusting and huge and I just want to go back to before my treatment I can’t keep doing this I have to give up everyone hates me and they think I’m so ugly and now I do too I really am overweight aren’t I it’s disgusting I hate it so much please help me lose the weight I can’t keep living like this

cmriverside

Just start. That's all any of us can do.

You're okay, you can find your way.

snowflake954

I guess it comes down to deciding if you really want to change your life and make it different. If you do, then you have to make some effort--be patient and consistent. Good luck.

ReenieHJ

Please don't give up. Yes, it's hard. But doable. And worth it. So so worth it! You'll feel better physically and mentally.

goal06082021

Please seek professional help, hun. You need more specialized help than a weight-loss support community is in any way qualified to provide.

snowflake954

I think you should contact your treatment team and work from there.

thisvickyruns

snowflake954 wrote: »

I think you should contact your treatment team and work from there.

this is excellent advice

dontlikepeople

Deep breath, and one step at a time. Depression is a terrible place to be, but as long as you keep taking one step at a time, things will eventually get better. Life was never meant to be easy, we all struggle, and if we aren't struggling with weight, we are struggling with other things. So deep breath. You're not alone. One small step at a time. They add up, I promise.

angelexperiment

I can tell you personally what you think others are thinking of you is not accurate. Most people aren’t even thinking of you or your appearance that’s most likely your own self talk. I’d work on getting into therapy, improving your self talk to love and self acceptance. Build your confidence. Start with mini goals as you achieve you feel better. Weight loss is hard but it is a huge mind game! Your mind doesn’t want you to change it will try to trick you make you think you can’t do it like when you go to excercise it will tell you I don’t want to today, or many excuses same with diet. It is better not to beat up when you feel you failed, learn and start again every day. Be consistent start a routine. And know if you mess up your next choice is the choice that turns it around. It is hard to change eating habits you always had it won’t be easy. I don’t know how many times I cried bc I don’t want to count calories or weigh food or skip on a food I know I should not have eaten ( but I learn too that I can have those foods but in a small quantity). I start every day with my same meal and that sets my tone for the day. Sometimes I succeed sometimes not. But I don’t bash myself for it anymore. If I ate outside my meal plan and ate say cookies or chocolate or something I don’t throw away my day. My next choice is what I planned to eat anyway usually this takes me over my calories for the day but it’s consistent that brings me back in line. And if I really want to have a sweet I make it part of my day rather than forbid it and eat a serving rather than a whole container. I also learned to trick myself with procrastination if say after work ( I work at a grocery store) I want a chocolate bomb for the ride home snack, I tell myself I’ll get it tomorrow or I’m too tired to walk to the bakery dept. on the ride home if the urge to stop for fast food hits I tell myself I’ll get it tomorrow or I don’t have the money (or I intentionally leave money home to not spend it) I tell myself I will make something similar when I get home. Same for if I want a soda or something. This really saves me a lot of calories and money! I get home and make something yummy but healthy and I’ve stayed on track this way. Or prepping meals ahead or prelog and this helps me see it’s not how I want to spend my calories. I am very visual I love food and so if I make things look good I’ll eat it. Just bc we are dieting doesn’t have to be boring or bland. Make something you look forward to eating, then I feel good cause I stuck to my goals and it makes me happy to eat this beautiful little bowl of colorful food. It’s silly but works!

pafinkssteffes

I’m just curious what the hardest thing for you is?

mookybargirl

One day. Just today. Even if you fail, tomorrow you try again. Just one day at a time.

elisa123gal

Your self talk is ringing in your ears. But that's not really you. You want to make a change..and the self talk is trying to keep you miserable and from taking the first steps.
My thought; just start even though you don't feel like it.. Fake it till it all clicks..and it will.

kshama2001

I really liked the antidepressant Wellbutrin and was on it for about 20 years until it stopped working last summer. I had tons of negative self talk after this happened. I switched to Cymbalta and my happy brain is back.

(Disclaimer: Cymbalta is apparently very addicting - I start to go in to withdrawal about 45 minutes after a missed dose. I set several alarms to make sure I take it on time. For me, this inflexibility is worth it to feel like my good old self again.)

metaphysicalstudio

Nothing wrong with seeking help. Help is always here. You are living a life and life is not easy. You are not alone. Help is around you.

Redordeadhead

How are you doing @againwiththerelapsing ?