Hello! New to MFP, nervous but willing to try

julia115lbsletsgo

Hi! I'm Julia. When I was in my early twenties I would hover in the 120-125lbs region but stress eating and the pandemic shot my weight all the way to 142lbs. I was very sad because I liked how I looked before and I also carry a lot of anxiety because growing up people tended to be quite critical about weight and most of the people in my family are overweight.

My goal is to weigh 115lbs (I'm short so the calculator said this was an ideal weight for my height). I haven't been that skinny since I was 12 years old.

I'm so nervous because I've been trying and failing for months now. I tried a WildFit challenge and that helped me get down to 137lbs, now I'm at 133lbs and have been hovering here for the last two months. I've been a pessimist about weight loss because obesity is the norm in my family, especially with the women. Being the "slim one" was a source of pride for me, that was a very unhealthy and toxic mindset and gave me a false sense of superiority. Now I'm going to lose the weight not because I've been told that it's important to be slim but because I'm curious to see what works for me and see how I feel at a lighter body weight.