The bad weeks...

loulee997

I'm not asking you to fix anything. But I am going to assume some of you struggle with more than food--just like me. You are not alone.

I struggle with my mood regulation, ADHD, and anxiety/depression. I've been doing really well on my new meds. Really well. Recently, my doctor changed my meds slightly. My pharmacy changed manufacturers. My meds stopped working. And worse, they caused really bad side effects--which never happened before. With luck, it is the manufacturer and it's a temporary problem.

Work is super stressful. My kitchen reno is stuck in limbo. I have no countertops or running water in my kitchen...going on month three. I hate the holidays. I've let the house go to heck--and I just can't seem to make myself clean up the clutter.

I've been craving my old comfort foods. I've started dipping into the crackers too often. I find myself buying chips at the gas station and eating them in the car.

I'm tired. I'm really, really tired.

It's hard to watch what I'm eating when just making it through the day takes all my energy. Every time I've lost weight or got my life together, my mood has sabotaged all my forward progress.

I'm telling myself it's just a bump in the road. I've hit this same pothole so many times, it has my name on it.

I know it's a chemical imbalance. I know it's just getting the meds right.
But it's really hard sometimes. Unlike the last 50 times, I tore my own life apart--I know why this happening this time. Before, I just hated myself because I kept doing this to myself.

Hopefully, the meds will get straightened out. The holidays stink--but they aren't forever. Work will suck no matter what. With luck, my meds will get straightened out by Christmas. I just need to clean the house and not overspend. Feels like a mountain.

I know this is an overshare. I just figured someone else might be going through the holiday blues and struggling with mood too.

It's okay.
We'll both get through it.

Good luck.