So Here We Go Again

Yivs_87

I'm not new to MFP.

I've been a member since 2015 and since then I've been on & off the platform so many times that you can definitely track my weight/health over the years based and major problems over the years based on when I was active/inactive over here.

I'm 36, female, European.

Whenever I've stuck with MFP I've seen success in both my overall weight and health. MFP and the people on here managed to open my eyes to many things including why all those fad diets never worked, why counting calories is not "scary" or "dangerous" or a "road to EDs"... if you did it properly that it is. How I can lose weight without depriving myself, without giving up any foods, what TDEE is, and how eating just a little beneath it you can actually see progress.

So, I'm not new. I know all those things. So... why am I here?

Because I'm an emotional eater, work-overachiever, with anxiety/depressive tendencies, who can handle stress in only way - by eating. The bigger problem? WFH. Yep. Back before Covid times I used to think that if I was working from home it would be brilliant as I'd have time to go to the gym, cook healthy meals... the reality? That never happened. What happened is that 90% of the time I skip lunch and go into dinner with such a huge appetite that I just eat constantly from the time I stop working to the time I go to bed.

If I have to be honest I'm very surprised that I've gained only 10ish kgs over the past 3 years and not more. Maybe because of those random bouts of 'let's try mfp again'...

So why am I back?

Well, a major stressor at work got eliminated. And with that my stress has become a bit more manageable. Over the past few months I've been doing some serious thinking and some serious talks with myself. And I can't continue like this. Not if I want to live the life I want. And I can't keep the weight as the constant excuse as to why I'm not going for the life I want.

I'm 36. And it's about time I became #1 priority for myself.

Currently:
- 98kgs / 216lbs
- 171cm / 5.7'
- pre "pre-diabetic" - borderline values just a smidge away from getting the diagnosis officially

Goals:
- get away from the pre-diabetic border
- take better care of myself
- don't skip meals
- lose weight - my first goal is to get under 200lbs/90kgs
- move more

I've cleaned up my 'friends' as I most of the old ones were no longer active, feel free to add me - my diary is open, though 90% of my meals will be "Yivs this, Yivs that" because over the years I've built my own database with foods where I'm 100% they are accurate as I'm the one to key them in

54ShadesOfBlue

On and off a bit my self over the years - with similar relationship to food. Add me if interested.

mtaratoot

Welcome back.

If you have been on and off, and if you can recognize that when you're on you see success, don't quit. That's how you win. You have to stick to it. If you go "back to your old ways," you'll see your old results. Capitalize on your success and stick to it! Develop habits you can maintain in perpetuity. It's not a race - it's the rest of your life!