It Never Ends!

explodingalice

Well, here I am at approximately the one-year mark of diligent logging, changing my eating habits, and becoming the kind of person who exercises on purpose. I am hovering right around my goal weight, and other than recent slippage due to hectic circumstances, I am pretty damn pleased. I've lost about 75 pounds since I started last year, and 100 from my heaviest weight. I pulled a dress out of a box the other day that was a size 20 - I'm now wearing a size 4.

When I started, a year seemed like an impossible amount of time to be 'done.' But now here I am and I've learned that 'done' doesn't exist if you're truly in this - you keep on striving to improve in some small way, you don't beat yourself up when you make mistakes, and you keep pushing to excel.

Other than becoming leaner and stronger, my biggest goal for the next 365 days is to work on silencing the inner fat girl in my head - the one that tells me that everyone is looking/laughing at me, the one that says that I am fat and blobby no matter what size I'm wearing, the one that makes me feel self-conscious when I am out with slimmer/prettier friends. I really, really need to shut her up.

askcupid117

Wow! What a great story! Way to go! You are so inspirational!

GardenGirlie

That inner fat girl lies....all the time. We all know it, I promise!! She sucks and you rock...don't forget it!!!

Fitfully_me

....... I really, really need to shut her up.

Yep! Here's how.
Step 1. Look in the mirror
Step 2. See your awesome self
Step 3. Smile and tell that inner far girl to SHOVE IT!
Step 4. walk away.. continue being awesome.


Congratulations on your success and thumbs up for having set a new goal! I

explodingalice

Yep! Here's how.
Step 1. Look in the mirror
Step 2. See your awesome self
Step 3. Smile and tell that inner far girl to SHOVE IT!
Step 4. walk away.. continue being awesome.

OK, I'm gonna give that a try.

LittleAngelamj

Good Job! Sounds like you're doing good. I've lost a total of 35 lbs, but I have been more focused on the eating healthier than the exercise part of it, so now I'm going to start exercising more so I can drop the last 25 lbs...

artsycella

I sympathize with the inner fat girl thing--I don't think my negative inner voice is tied to weight so much as it is tied to being the odd one no one wants to hang out. Geez, middle school, why can't I get over you?! It's been more than a decade!

Anyway, I think we all have our demons and you have done such an incredible job of vanquishing the things you aren't happy with in your life. I hope your mind catches up soon. You're strong and funny and a real inspiration to me. Good luck with those silly head-voices!

qtgonewild

congrats on your wonderful loss. and I wish you well on your next goal for the next year. YOU CAN AND WILL DO IT.

jessizona80

....... I really, really need to shut her up.

Yep! Here's how.
Step 1. Look in the mirror
Step 2. See your awesome self
Step 3. Smile and tell that inner far girl to SHOVE IT!
Step 4. walk away.. continue being awesome.


Congratulations on your success and thumbs up for having set a new goal! I

This!

bcattoes

That is so awesome. And don't believe the inner girl. She is a LIAR.

explodingalice

You're strong and funny and a real inspiration to me.

D'awwwwwww. Thanks. :blushing:

JewelsinBigD

You have done fantastic! I wish I would have lost that much my first year. Really amazing!! Your inner fat girl is DEAD. DEAD I TELL YOU! Push that ghost aside and say "be gone". She has no more power over you -- don't give the ghost an inch - they will take a mile. You are done with her.

Hearts_2015

Well, here I am at approximately the one-year mark of diligent logging, changing my eating habits, and becoming the kind of person who exercises on purpose. I am hovering right around my goal weight, and other than recent slippage due to hectic circumstances, I am pretty damn pleased. I've lost about 75 pounds since I started last year, and 100 from my heaviest weight. I pulled a dress out of a box the other day that was a size 20 - I'm now wearing a size 4.

When I started, a year seemed like an impossible amount of time to be 'done.' But now here I am and I've learned that 'done' doesn't exist if you're truly in this - you keep on striving to improve in some small way, you don't beat yourself up when you make mistakes, and you keep pushing to excel.

Other than becoming leaner and stronger, my biggest goal for the next 365 days is to work on silencing the inner fat girl in my head - the one that tells me that everyone is looking/laughing at me, the one that says that I am fat and blobby no matter what size I'm wearing, the one that makes me feel self-conscious when I am out with slimmer/prettier friends. I really, really need to shut her up.

inspiration, thank you!

1princesswarrior

Congratulations!

I totally relate to the inner fat girl, I'm already screaming at her. And somehow I'm the girl that mean girls pretend to be friends with and then stab in the back.

DymonNdaRgh40

Well, here I am at approximately the one-year mark of diligent logging, changing my eating habits, and becoming the kind of person who exercises on purpose. I am hovering right around my goal weight, and other than recent slippage due to hectic circumstances, I am pretty damn pleased. I've lost about 75 pounds since I started last year, and 100 from my heaviest weight. I pulled a dress out of a box the other day that was a size 20 - I'm now wearing a size 4.

When I started, a year seemed like an impossible amount of time to be 'done.' But now here I am and I've learned that 'done' doesn't exist if you're truly in this - you keep on striving to improve in some small way, you don't beat yourself up when you make mistakes, and you keep pushing to excel.

Other than becoming leaner and stronger, my biggest goal for the next 365 days is to work on silencing the inner fat girl in my head - the one that tells me that everyone is looking/laughing at me, the one that says that I am fat and blobby no matter what size I'm wearing, the one that makes me feel self-conscious when I am out with slimmer/prettier friends. I really, really need to shut her up.

It is so hard to quiet that inner fat girl. She bugs me too! You know what is helping me most? It's not the compliments from others on the weight loss, but I'm actually starting to see the differences myself. The more I see my body change, the less I hear from her.

Congrats on your weight loss!

Keep it going and eventually you'll hear less from her.

marywilsoncline

I know exactly where your coming from! I started in 2010 weighing my heaviest ever at 210 lbs. I am now at 108 give or take a pound here and there. I used to wear a size 22! I now wear a size 4, some size 2's. This is an ever going thing. I now tell people I'm not on a diet any more and they just give a funny look. I'm not though, I have learned change is a big thing in keeping the weight off. It is a lifestyle change that, in order to keep the weight I've lost off, I had to learn to accept and incorporate as my life every day. This consist of eating healthy and working out just about every day although I have started to try and take Sundays as an 'off" day. Sometimes my body begs for an "off" day and I listen to it. Congrats on your weight loss, you have come a long way:flowerforyou:

melissatacker

Thanks for sharing your story...I hope that I can reach my goal and continue to stay on a healthy path once I do!

cmeiron

You tell that inner fat girl to take a long walk off a short pier. :grumble:

YOU, my friend, are awesome, incredible, inspiring. You have kicked *kitten* 100 different ways this year, and you should be super-proud of yourself. I'm so glad I met you early on in this adventure and look forward to the next 365 :drinker:

Hearts_2015

I'm working on learning to love my inner fat girl... she's just a kid after all...trying to make everyone happy. Who am I to hate on her anymore than she's already been hated on? She actually needs to be loved... least that's how I see it.

All she did was wanted to fit in and when she didn't she ate her feelings, then it became a comfort and the pattern began.

Naw... I don't think hating a part of ourselves will make our inner demons go away... I've decided to love her because She is after all..the one that got me here:drinker:

We're working on this together!

Eastendgirl73

I LOVE THAT! When that negative Nelly voice comes around me like she does every so often, I'm going to talk back with kindness and love. I'm going to tell her that she doesn't belong here anymore and to please mozy on along.:-)

Love always wins:-)

ctalimenti

Tell her to STFU. I just looked at your pictures and you're a skinny chic.

explodingalice

Hahaha, thanks!

explodingalice

Tell her to STFU. I just looked at your pictures and you're a skinny chic.

Hahaha, thanks!

explodingalice

I'm working on learning to love my inner fat girl... she's just a kid after all...trying to make everyone happy. Who am I to hate on her anymore than she's already been hated on? She actually needs to be loved... least that's how I see it.

All she did was wanted to fit in and when she didn't she ate her feelings, then it became a comfort and the pattern began.

Naw... I don't think hating a part of ourselves will make our inner demons go away... I've decided to love her because She is after all..the one that got me here:drinker:

We're working on this together!

That's an interesting perspective. I wouldn't say that I *hate* her ... I feel more like she hates me and keeps saying all these negative things to trip me up.

Incidentally, writing it out like that makes me sound like a crazy person.

melfitnesspal13

Congrats! Maintenance is the key to a lifetime of success. I have always struggled with the "fat girl". I didn't have any self-confidence issues growing up except I always saw "fat" in the mirror. On my current journey I have lost 70 lbs now and I don't see any difference at all in the mirror but I am able to see it in the monthly pics I take. I am so glad our coach insisted we do these. I have to say I am not sure if I will ever not feel fat but I have learned to deal with it and don't let that thought/self-image ever get me down. Accept her and let her know she is just in the mirror....not to sound creepy or anything LOL

:flowerforyou: