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amswarner

yo-yo is what I have unfortunately done with my weight. I’m have totally gone up. Feel so stupid that I let it happen. I did good for about one year, was so dedicated and then let it slide. I had gone from 306 to 225. Now, I am starting again, just in a better position at 282. Still want to go down 60. Went out biking yesterday with great intentions to start my healthy habits again.
feel so horrible letting myself down again. I was getting to the point where my type 2 diabetes was totally under control with diet and exercise. That’s the biggest thing. I know all the right stuff to do and eat, just something internal that lets me eat without control. Wish I could change that mental/ emotional desire and not be able to eat and never feel full.

My fall off the wagon has also made me feel horrible about myself, that I have failed myself (again!) My clothes don’t fit again, I don’t like the person in the mirror, my performance in the bedroom has all been affected. Uggh. Not looking for sympathy but just venting. I know what I need to do. Send me prayers. I know that it’ll take many months to get back into the shape I want to be in. Biked yesterday, and starting to track food again today to try and keep myself honest. Today, walk at lunch and bike after work.