Metro fine.

Just wanted to post this for some reason, hope you don't mind.

I accidently forgot to buy a ticket for the metro and the checkies came on. I got off and went to buy a ticket for the rest of my journey and they said 'You can't just but a ticket after'. I told them I wasn't it was for the rest of my journey and they told me to come to them. They said because I didnt have a ticket they going to fine me. So they asked for ID and I showed them my old travel pass, which has just run out (that I nornally have a pass mean I am not in the habit of tickets, hence forgot). They said if it had been more than 4 days out of date, they take people toCOURT!! Now, I FREAKED OUT about this because I thought they was saying they are taking me to court. So I burst out crying and saying 'Why, why, I don't understand why you would do this'. I was crying really hard and people around was looking, I could hear teenagers whispering about me. She asked me questions for the form and said I must pay £20 and give me like an invoice thing. She was also being pretty nice to me and saying it's OK, and in the end she got me to understand that I was not going to court.

I then was so upset that it was all I could do to sit in the corner, facing the wall, because I could just wanted to block the whole world out. But then the next metro pulled up, and I went to get a ticket, because I had not thought to, and the woman who fined me helped, but I still missed it. So I went back to sit in the corner, and after a bit, another checkie guy come and say 'are you OK? ' I said 'Will you put me on one of the name and shame posters?' and he said no, that they didn't have those anymore, and that was only for people who failed to pay the fines anyways. I was still kind of tearful and maybe like 4 of them, including the original one who fined me came round and they was all being nice to me. The woman said 'Aww, you missed the last one because you getting your ticket didn't you?'. I am sure that they had generally come to the conclusion that I had a learning disability (I don't) because they were talking to me in a way that is very very kind but also kind of patronising. But I don't blame them, they just doing what they thought best. They was chatting and she has told the others my name and they said hello, and she said this other fella was the boss. I felt really guilty because it makes me feel guilty when people are nice like that, like pity nice. I think they are good checkies. They told me they was going to help me get on the metro- they warned me when it was 4 mins away, 3, 2 and 1. Like I say, they seem to have concluded I was mentally disabled and struggled to travel independently. Which is a fair enough conclusion considering I forgot to by a ticket. When it come they pointed it out, and I got on. I felt so much feelings, first from the distress, then from guilt because they were nice, and upset that I had made that mistake that causes me to have to pay £20. I started cryig again but just quietly this time. I looked at my fine invoice and my name was written wrong. I am worried this will cause a trouble, if they think I purposely gave a false name, which I didn't.

It was a very upsetting incident, in total. I wish I could go back in time and buy the ticket in the first place :( All very unsettling