I finally feel like I'm getting my head right!

nmn2

Knowing what I should do to get healthy and actually having the mindset, confidence and willpower to follow through are two totally different things! I have been logging in mfp for about 280 days now. At first I did really well and lost about 14 pounds. By this past April I stopped losing and just fluctuated between the same several pounds until the end of August when I decided there was no point to what I was doing In 3 weeks I gained back 6 pounds Huge disappointment and all my own fault! The last 2 weeks I have really gotten my head back in the game. My mind is my biggest struggle but I'm doing so much better! I have lost 5 of the 6 pounds that I gained and I just feel so much better!

I still have so far to go, I have not been eating 100% clean but I am counting and logging everything accurately and honestly down to every bite and staying withing my cals! I have stepped up my exercise which is mainly just walking but I have been adding a little more each day like jumping jacks and jogging

Exercise has always sounded like a dirty word to me, it always seemed like a punishment something I had to do. some of my oldest memories are of my mom sweating to the oldies, going on a diet and going to Spa Lady which was a ladies gym in our area. She finally had a gastric bypass about 10 years ago and is no happier now. It affected me so much although I did not realize it until the last few years. I was convinced I was fat from Elementary age and I was average, thin even until my early 20's. I want to be different for my kids especially my daughter! I'm trying so hard to be a better example ... I have a long way to go but my kids, 2 1/2 and 3 1/2 already enjoy exercising with me and that makes me proud! I want them to know it's important and fun and I never want them to hear me talk negatively about myself (and that's a hard habit to break but I'm working on it). I have felt so good the last couple of weeks!

Lord, let me stay on this path!