Returning & being happy with my body

ScouseNerd

I was an active member up until the end of June and have been away for quite some time now. I guess I was just unhappy eating so little for so long and seeing nearly no results (yes, I did increase my calories but that just stagnated progress - I'm beginning to think that years of yo-yo dieting have killed my metabolism). I've still been working out fairly regularly but my eating habits have fallen by the wayside and that's why I'm back. I do need to lose weight, but I'm not about to dive in with the calories and scales and driving myself crazy. I'm really just here for the amazing moral support and community that I remember to help me balance my lifestyle; think positive, and allow the positive results to come when they may.

A main thing I want to overcome is my body image. When I'm skinny I feel great, and overall I think pretty well of myself as a person. But my entire life has been a judgement of my weight; how tight are my pants today? Do I look bigger in this photo? Is my face rounder than it used to be? I'm sure I'm not alone - I want put my entire life on hold when I have a fat day. I feel useless and all my confidence is gone when I feel bigger. Anytime I put on a few pounds I loathe myself; it shouldn't matter, I should be happy with myself all the time and realize that the weight is just the weight and I'll do better, but for that day, I can't do anything about it. I want to accept my body in any state.

So yes - lose weight, but also not beat myself of if I don't lose weight. Really hope I can rely on some of you guys to help me along and appreciate any and all support I receive; I ensure you I'm keen to return the favour

Have a great day!