My sorry sob story

antheajoy

Hi all!, I’m 19..20 in a few months and here is my story:

I have never felt 100% ok with my body, mostly because my mother was emotionally abusive to me all my life.
From mid primary school my mother began putting me on diets and increasing my exercise... I was hungry ALL the time but i was still "chubby".
The catchphrases became
"Just two more kilos off your tummy"
"If you stayed this size you could be a plus size model".
"You don’t want to look like that fat girl do you?"
To encourage me my mother would take me to the boys section and say I was too fat for girls pants or comment on how large my butt was,
That my legs had no shape and my thighs had more jiggle then jelly....

what made this worse was the stress induced gorging, hiding food, sneaking food and stealing coins so I could buy a pie for lunch instead of my salad.
Looking back at photos I can see that in early high school I was GORGEOUS.
That was when I was throwing up when I got to school after having breakfast forced on me. (Having breakfast speeds your metabolism).
While also having every evening taken up by swimming or dancing. I was exhausted, but pretty.
..I wasn’t happy...i needed to lose more and make my mother love me.

Needless to say, I needed to move out and I did....then I began eating,
Eating to celebrate, eating to mourn, and eating all the time. It was the first time I could control my own food intake and I went nuts.
Not to mention I got into my current relationship and became comfy and squishy!

I don’t want to be a stick...I am 94k as of this moment and I want to get back to 70k the weight I was in mid high school. Size 16 would be great, 14 even better but no lower. I just want to be health and find it easy to find clothes my size that don’t make me look like a sausage..

Anyone wants to be my friend and we can give each other support?

Via_14

Hey,

And i thought my mum was bad growing up...It's great you moved out and now are taking care of your health. I know from experience sticks and stones dont break your bones but wordsdo hurt you when they come from your own mother.

Wish you all the best on your weight loss journey

Best of regards,
Via

the_summer_belle

Sounds like your mum is a narcissist have a look at that online you might be surprised she might fit the bill will help you get closure.

ketchuplover

Opulent October to all on this site.