Starting all over again

mi0ne

Hey guys! I'm kinda new here and i just wanted to say "hi" and ask for some encouragement for my new start:p

My story is this: first months of 2013 i started a diet (not a starving one, i had regular weekly plans made for me etc) along with everyday exercising (bodyrock, running, yoga, everything..) , and i finally came down to the weight and body i've been wanting my entire life. New clothes, new mood, everything new!

Half a year after that, and after working someplace far away from home (i was not able to cook my meals over there), work in a kitchen (around too much food!), being exausted all the time and not exercising, all these things combined with a minor (or major?:p) depression, i gained a whole of 10 kilos (that makes 22lbs i guess).
I've never ever been this much -my height is only 156cm (5'1") and this shows on me A LOT. I am and i feel heavy, i have not a single pair of pants i can fit in, i dont wanna leave my house, and the only thing i wanna do is turn back time and not act so stupid again. Plus, i still cant control my apetite and the food (especially sugar!) cravings, now that i've been eating (binge eating too..) all these months, and still have no power to move my fingers and get back to exercising. I feel terrible.

Has any of you been in the same situation with me in the past? Where did you find the power to start all over again and go through the same plans and tries? I'd really love some motivation

bridgie101

I think just try logging what you do eat, and don't ask too much of yourself just yet.

I find if I eat enough protein I don't get sugar cravings the same - and if I do crave something sweet, choosing something small has saved me a couple of times.

I admit I had half a packet of biscuits the other day, but I think I still came in under goal. it sort of got it off my chest.

Another thing I've noticed: I might be in the lolly aisle at the supermarket, but if I let myself take my time, I often end up, looking at the backs of the packs, realising I don't want any of them and walking away. I think hurrying can lead a person to grabbing things that if they stood there a few minutes, they might change their mind on.

maybe if you can't stop the sugar cravings, just get a bag of hard jubes. It's about five for a hundred calories I think.

la8ydi

Remember: every day is a new day. Every day is a chance to start over. Every day is a new beginning on this journey. Also remember it took a while for the weight to add up - it's going to take a while for the weight to come off. Just keep going. If you stumble, pick yourself up and start again. I read a comparison once that really hit home. When a toddler first starts to walk, they stumble and fall. Do we, as adults, tell that child that they are better off just sitting so they don't get hurt? No - we encourage them to keep walking - cheering at the LITTLE steps, the small progress. Keep going - at this time next year, you will be glad you started today. :-)

Nikki_peanut

This all sounds all too familiar to me also Mi0ne so you are definately not alone, I have just in the last 4 days started my diet again and if im honest it was a real effort the first 3 days to find motivation and the umph to do it but stangely yesterday it actually felt like something had changed, I think the fact I have worked hard at this in the very little time I have done this makes me realise I really dont want to undo all that hard work... I removed every single peice of bad food out of my house so the temptation is out of reach, I have been online looking up healthy recipes to replace all the my bad diet choices, and knowing I done so well on this diet before I find helps as well as I know in all heart of hearts "I can actually do this"...
As depressing as this sounds I forced myself to go into some clothes shops and look about at clothes at my ideal weight as well so I could tell myself "one day I will definately fit into these", its given me the push I need as I am desperate to look really nice in clothes...

I set myself little mini targets as well and never really focus on the "big target", my aim is to hit the first half stone then after that hit another half stone to make a stone, then when i've hit my stone mark I will up my mini target to a stone as I already proved to myself I can do a stone, I found focusing on the "big target" just felt too unrealistic to begin with but when I done this diet before by doing all the little mini targets and seeing the pounds come off it felt so much closer getting to my main target

Also as much as it will kill you to do right now make sure you take a before photo and tuck it away for a month and forget about it for a bit then concentrate on your diet then as each month goes past keep taking pics and looking at your original it does show over time I promise and it really does make you feel a million dollars realize the weight is coming off and its down to your hard work

Hope this helps you in someway... good luck and remember you are definately not alone in any of this journey xx

lambchoplewis

I am in the same boat. I lost 25 lbs and was at my ideal weight. I maintained for over a year and starting last May, a little wine here led to alot of wine and then food. Day after day this went on and in Sept found myself 10 lbs heavier and not fitting into clothes I had just bought. That was it. For me, I have to stop drinking wine which makes me stop eating food late at night. Stopping these two things and continuing to exercise and eat right is starting to pay off. It took 5 months to gain the weight. Hope it does not take that long to be able to fit into my fall clothes.

mi0ne

Thank you for your replies girls!! They mean a lot:)

I know how it is to start an effort.. but it's even more difficult when you've reached your goals and then roll back to the starting point! And that's cause you know how much it takes to succeed, and you know you have go through the same all over again! I see the "oh, now has she gained weight!" look on peoples faces (last time everybody saw me i was 10 kilos less) and it makes me feel awful. Also, starting work again in 2 days and having nothing to wear is terrifying. Dont want them to see my change:/

I never go to the supermarket without having a shopping list. I can control myself when buying things. But when the cravings come, i end up finishing off everything within my reach- even if it's just breakfast cereals:P This is why i try to buy single serving packs of anything. If for example i buy a box of hard jubes, as bridgie101 said, there's no way i'll stop at 5 pieces. Sometimes i find relief in fruit yogurts though, convincing myself they're dessert:p Bad thing as well is that i dont live alone. Our fridge and cupboards are all the time packed with food - cheese, pasta, cookies, chocolates, everything i should avoid - and ofcourse i cant force anyone to stop buying them. I just have to stop being weak. I had succeeded in that when i was losing weight, so maybe it's just till i see the first pounds dropping off.

You're all right bout the small steps and targets. It's just so hard to remember it all the time:). I can take a photo and upload it comparing it with my old me, but it would be the worst before and after ever! hehe. Right the opposite of what it's supposed to be. :ohwell:

Wilkinsle

That is me. I just fall and get back up. Never quit starting over.

Melionfire

I have started over many times. Lost and gained the same 70 pounds 3 times since I was 13. I am now 32 and starting over again after having my first child. I know what it takes to lose the weight it's keeping it off I have to work on. I don't think I will ever stop starting over because I can't accept and be happy with my current weight and definitely don't want to gain!!!! Plus I know how great it feels to succeed!! My ultimate goal is to archive my goal weight and keep it off with the help of mfp and will power!!!!