natural eating after backsliding

bextoye

ok so on the 27th february 2013 i decided that i am no longer gonna be eating anything proccessed, and quit the stupid diets, i was sat eating a chocolate cheese cake, telling myself that this was my last one and i would start my diet tommorrow, i had been doing this for a few months saying it wasnt hurting me wether it was a takeaway or a chocolate bar etc, when i steped on the scales i had put on a stone and went up 2 dress sizes, i had done the diet thing before and hit the gym everyday until i got to my goal weight then decided i didnt need it anymore i quit my gym membership and started pigging out again.
i then started feeling horrible, tired and moody and got to the point where i tried to make myself sick after eating or took laxative, just to get back to the size i was.
my dad and mum is a big factor in my desicion also has my mum died at 37 (am 27) from organ failure and my dad had a stroke 7 years ago and cant control his body which is hard to see my dad who was once in the army a physically fit man, wee himself and be degraded because of poor life style choices that he chose, i decided that i wouldnt end up like this and am now eating fresh organic food and meat and have rejoined the gym i also go bike riding and do weights has having more muscle burns more fat and women need to weight train. anyway sorry for babbling on just wondered if anyone was doing anthing similar and wanted friends on here for encouragement or had anyother tips on what i could do i also had really bad acne that was making me depressed i will post a pic it was very upsetting the drs wanted me to go on roaccutane but with 3 children i didnt want that beause of the side affects of suicide and depression, well thanks for reading and if anyone can check out the fatburningman absolutly brillant his on podcast.

Stage14

First, maybe consider talking to someone about all the emotional stuff going on. That is a lot for anyone to handle.

As far as food, it sounds like you're being too restrictive and that's a large part of your problem. You don't have to eat 100% organic, non-processed food to lose weight or be healthy. If it's too hard to stick to that diet, make smaller changes that you can stick with. Get comfortable with counting calories first, for example. Then worry about cutting down on processed junk or whatever.

Sassyallday

I agree. Please get some support for the many emotional issues you have after losing your mother and, in a way, the father you knew. We all deserve help handling tough issues.

Also, you could benefit from more information- - -about eating enough to thrive and lose weight- - -about health issues caused by poor diet. You do seem, as many of us do, to jump from extreme to extreme. When I want to lose weight, I want to do it now! But that never has worked for me. Slow and steady wins the race.

As for the health concerns, you blame poor lifestyle choices on your parents' health concerns. But it could help you to understand the specific ways in which those choices did and did not impact them so that you won't be so fearful about your own health.

Meditation, prayer, a daily reading. . .these are all tools that I use to get to my calm center when I feel frantic. Just hold on. You are clearly motivated. Use that energy to learn how to take care of yourself in a calm, steady way that you can maintain for life.

Well wishes.

donjessop

I have to echo the thoughts of those above me. Stress can be a big factor in weight gain and then inability to lose weight. You seem to be filled with stress. I wish I could take some away from you but it is something that only you can do. Talk to people, just like you're doing here, get some local help/support and I bet you will see a big difference. You have a strong motivator to keep yourself health, now you need something to keep you happy as well.