Where to Start

Kagemori

im trying to get myself back on track here. Its been a couple of months since ive honestly cared about trying to be healthy. with all the family drama ive had going on,(my step-niece almost dying, my mom being suicidal, and my own personal stay in the hospital to name a few things) dieting and exercising just have not been a top priority for me.

things in my life (finally) seem to be calming back down and i really want to get back on track. this past couple of months though ive not only regained the weight previously lost but ive also packed on another whopping 20lbs. i now weight 270lbs. this is the biggest i have ever been, and it is my worst fear to get so big that i will be unable to properly take care of myself and that i will suffer serious health risks because of my weight.

but i will admit to feeling scared about starting over again. sometimes it seems as though im fighting a loosing battle with my weight. it seems like every time i make some progress something happens and i get thrown completely off track again. and also i dont know where to restart. ive cut out alot of fast food, and im out walking again but it seems like i should be doing more, i dont know what though.

Like is said before, right now i feel lost and i dont know what i should being doing.

i dont know whats wrong with me or why i feel this way i just know that i really want to do this, to try and get better, make myself healthier but i feel stuck, like i dont know how else to move forward or whats the right thing to do to start taking steps forward.

lgrix

Welcome back, sorry to hear you have been having such a hard time.

Tracking your food is how to get back on track. Whether you are within your target or over, just track. Eventually it will click and you will have some record of what works for you and what doesn't.

Wishing you the best in all.

refinedredbird

I am sorry that some pretty terrible things have been happening to you lately, but I am glad that they are finally getting resolved and there is less stress as of right now. Here is the thing (and I mean it very respectfully): there will ALWAYS be stuff happening in life that is stressful, it just morphs into different types of issues. It happens to all of us in varying degrees throughout our lives. I am personally a major worrier and it can get to me a lot and other people's actions affect my life. I am trying to learn how to overcome some of that.

Should you put your health in jeopardy because of other people? No.

We all want to help our loved ones and we want to be good human beings, but when you are not taking care of yourself the way you should by not eating healthy, not being physically active, and gaining weight to a dangerous level, you need to take a step back and analyze your priorities. You shouldn't just quit with every hiccup on your life's path because honestly, you will always be quitting.

Remind yourself of the importance of getting and staying healthy and stick to it. Don't let it simply be a "fad." After an extended period of time, it will become a lifestyle and you will not have to think of it as much and it will come more naturally to you.