I need motivation, I fell off the wagon

mer10s

In September 2011, my sweet husband pushed me to get off my buns and lose the weight I'd been complaining about. He got me a gym membership for my birthday (don't worry, it was a good thing!). From 9/11 to 10/12, I lost almost 30lbs, countless inches and went from a size 12 jeans to a size 4. I was at the gym at least 5 of 7 days a week. I ate healthy and made many lifestyle changes that I was so proud of. I never felt better in my life. During that time, I was working a job that I hated and hardly ever saw my kids or husband. Going to the gym and seeing my results was my escape from the depression caused by the job and lack of family time. And, I'm ashamed to say, getting attention from other people (including strangers) was doing wonders for my self- esteem. In 10/12, after much thought and prayer, I quit my job. DH was totally on board and we decided to send me back to school. My life changed so much! I was no longer at a job that I felt was killing me slowly. I got to tuck my kids into bed each night. I got to spend time with my husband. I got decent sleep. Then slowly over the year from 10/12 to current, I've gained over half the weight back. I over eat, I make unhealthy choices. I haven't been to the gym in 2 months and before that I was maybe going once a week. School is hard and overwhelming, but it's no excuse. I don't know why I did this. I know that when I was working, it was easier to eat less and better because i had to pack my food and I was never home. I had less free time in my day and so getting to the gym and having a set schedule kept me on schedule. I have so much more time on my hands now, but I can't seem to keep a schedule.
I'm rambling. I know where I've screwed up. I want to get this weight back off and get the rest off that I had set out to lose back then. I know what I need to change. But I can't seem to kick my buns in gear. I'll start the day with a great healthy breakfast and plan to go to the gym....then I crap out and eat half a box of cookies and drink diet dr pepper all day while studying and watching netflix. Then the next day it's the same thing. I'm disappointed in myself. Angry at myself.

I don't have friends that are in a similar boat. I can't recruit a friend to join me for the gym. My husband goes to his work gym before work each day but besides he is trying to gain weight. I tried to start an accountability group with my fb friends, and no takers.

I need to find my motivation and get back on the wagon. I need to fix this.
But I don't know how.
help!

Carrie

Lizzy622

KICK->Butt!!! You know what to do. Set a schedule like you did when you were working. I have my workout clothes on the side of my bed. As soon as the alarm goes off I change into them and am on my way.(with a quick kiss to hubby) I am assuming kiddos are school age so if you have your clothes on and get them on the bus or to school and hit the gym right away it gives you no excuse. I also find I don't eat bad after I work out. I would also get the cookies out of the house. The kids do not need them either unless they are homemade in small batches. You can do it!

yoovie

Decide to skip the get motivated step. It catches up on its own.

Do you need to be motivated to go out with your friends?

vim_n_vigor

Your motivation, spark, desire have to come from you. No one else has the investment of you being the most awesome you that you can be more than you do.