Back for the....300th time...

MissKikiiii

I am sure everyone is sick of hearing me whine about this, probably as much as I am sick about whining. I am starting over. I've had enough. My body deserves better. I miss the way I used to feel. The way I felt good, not like the fat girl in the room. How I used to enjoy looking at myself in the mirror, how I wasn't afraid of the scale, or getting naked to get in the shower. I could continue forever, but I wont. I started my weight loss journey when I got dumped by someone I was in love with. (I know the WRONG reason to get stated, but it motivated me.) Now I have that person back, and packed on 40 pounds. I have tried starting over and over and each time I do I am good for about 4 days and then KABLAM I'm right back to eating two chocolate bars and stopping for fast food. I don't know where my motivation went or how to get it back, but I need to. I need to love myself again.