Restart - Toldja I was not perfect!!

AudraHeinman

Hi everyone!

I actually started a new profile because I wanted to use MY name, not my nick name! I was otterheinman before.

Ok ok ok, and I started a new profile to start fresh and new with my journey. Soooo.. .yesterday sucked if you want to check out my journal, however, IT IS HONEST!!! I weighed 300 lbs for 13 years & I've maintained a loss of 120 lbs for almost 10 years. I now hover between 180 & 200... have for many years. I'm tired of not being healthy.

That's my new goal. To be thorough and honest, as well as making better choices.

12 weeks ago, my weight loss journey was full swing. My metabolism was VERY active and I was training for my first sprint tri the end of August. Then I had an accident.

A friend and I were training, we were only going 10 mph on our bikes. Flat road. No hills. No high speeds. We were supposed to meet a friend and she was running late, so we were going to do a quick 5 miles or so while waiting. Well, we weren't even a mile away from where we were starting and my cell rang. I yelled to Kim that Kyla was calling, she kept going. So... I reached in my pocket, pulled out my cell to talk to her while riding. When I looked up, Kim had slowed to wait for me. I panicked as I didn't want to slam in to her... I had cars on my right and a ditch on my left, so I hit the brakes. Well, I hit the only brake I had my hand on... the right side. The back of the bike slung around beside me and I went down.

Since we weren't going very fast, I figured I'd laugh (& maybe curse) then get back up, get on and get going. (On our hybrids, we get going well over 30 mph easy). However, as I fell, I looked up and saw that the bones in my right ankle were pushing the skin out when my leg was in the air... I quickly thought.. "odd..." then when my food/leg landed... the bones depressed and my skin sunk in. Too far.

I broke my tibia and fibula. They shoved through my skin. I also tore an artery that was also sticking out of my leg. I was in surgery in less than 3 hours. I've now got a plate & 10 screws. My ROM is very limited right now as the surgeon had to cut away a lot of skin that had died where the bones pushed through (even with the ER dr popping them in in less than 1 1/2 hours..doing an ORIF) and stretch the skin to sew it together. For 2 1/2 weeks I had to have my leg elevated high enough that my thigh was above my heart, because if it swelled and tore, we'd be talking mesh and skin graft. This is all right where my ankle bone used to be on the inside of my right leg. The outside is what I call my Frankenstein scar... where they had to cut to put the hardware.

All that to say, I've taken 12 weeks off. From everything. My metabolism kept me going for about a month, but then eventually that slowed again. The depression was overwhelming. I deal with that anyway, but this was so much worse. From active and getting fit and feeling great, to not being able to move. I live in the country so not many could'/would come visit. I understood that also.

Either way... Fresh start right here for me!! I need friends!!

I'm NOT perfect. I won't always post every day (I'll try, but I make no promises) I won't always eat good, but I'll be honest (yesterday is proof *sigh*) and I would love a support system of other imperfect people.

I eat processed food (working towards getting away from it) I eat carbs (YUMMY... Come on, why do the bad carbs have to taste so good) I'm at a very slow start to returning to exercise (per Dr orders and limitations, but I'm doing SOMETHING at least!!)

Sooo.. if you could use an imperfect friend to buddy up with... ADD ME!!! I had lots of imperfects on my last profile and wish I could have somehow transferred them all with me. You other imperfect people... you get me!!

Feel free to add me!!!

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