Falling into a binge eating disorder? :(

Runtivated

Hi guys
Okay, I really really really need some help here. I've joined university recently and its been disastrous. I though I'd be able to manage everything, but ironically it all started falling apart and it began with my weight. I had an onset of anorexia once that i got out of, but I feel like this time its going to be a full fledged binge eating disorder. I've been at college for about 4 weeks now and gained 5 kgs! i don't even know how to be honest, and in all this while I haven't been living on takeaways to be honest. My splurges: chocolate coated peanuts 2 bags, a tub of ben and jerrys, a churros cone, noodles at a noodle bar once, and a chocolate here and there. But the issue is, i'm eating too much of the 'good' stuff too. Sometimes i feel plain sick and filthy and like throwing up. I'm usually home, and since i used to lift weights, doing it at this gym feels too intimidating to be honest. the people are scary and the boys give you nasty looks. I just feel tangled.
I'm usually having a lot of greek yoghurt, fruits and nuts, and a fish here and there, though I havent had bread, rice or pasta in a long while. but i dont know...
i just need someone to tell me to stop please.
i used to be a 31-25-34 and last time i checked in the morning im a 32-27-36! how did i gain two inches on my butt I feel filthy. i worked so hard to lose weight and went from 165lbs to 117 and now 130! yikes!

Steph109876

I'm in the same boat as you. I know I eat for comfort, but I can't stop! I wish I could be normal.

lauraspberry

I know how you feel. I've been there and stress in school really does make you hungry. I suggest drinking water before meals and eating filling foods like oatmeal and boiled egg. There are lots of oatmeal recipes out there that caters to sweet tooth (I'm assuming that you have a sweet tooth because of the food that you listed) Goodluck! It's just mind over matter. :flowerforyou: you can do it! You were able to lost a large amount of weight before, I'm pretty sure you can go through this. You;re a tough cookie

beachlover317

Go to your university student medical clinic. You need to talk to someone about your negative feelings with your body and how you are viewing food. Good luck.

Runtivated

aw thank you! :') That was such a cheerful message it almost got my hopes up!
Eggs are a really good idea, and I suppose I'll have to get rid of all the nuts and stuff in my cupboard though I try to stay out more, but i could eat normal for a day, go on a night out and im back in the morning and its the same cycle all over again!

Runtivated

Steph, its so strange isn't it? Its like you KNOW you can simply not, dont have and dont want to eat that but you will anyway.

lambchoplewis

I am a binge eater also. I do really good and for some unknown reason - I start eating and can't stop. I am getting better at knowing this is going to happen but... I wish it would not. I have gained back around 10 lbs since I lost and maintained. I want it off as my new clothes feel tight. We can do this. It is a life long journey and it might never go away - I just want it to be less and less.

lauraspberry

Don't cut back on the nuts just control your portion and try low calorie recipes for things that you really like. That's how I got over bingeing restricting will make you crave more. :flowerforyou:

PINKSPARKLE1965INPARADISE

I had a good week so far but when I start eating candy I feel a binge trying to surface. I may have to give candy up for a while)

jaireed

STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Do what's healthy for your body. Make each choice you make about food count. Don't fall into the trap of allowing food to control your life and your self esteem. Love yourself. Hit up the gym. I'm sure there are other girls you can go with. Find positive healthy minded friends. Talk to someone if you are becoming obsessed. Be good to yourself. There is only one you and you will only pass through this way once. Do it right!!! Good luck!!!

Runtivated

I am a binge eater also. I do really good and for some unknown reason - I start eating and can't stop. I am getting better at knowing this is going to happen but... I wish it would not. I have gained back around 10 lbs since I lost and maintained. I want it off as my new clothes feel tight. We can do this. It is a life long journey and it might never go away - I just want it to be less and less.

Aw yes we can! I suppose we really do have to look back and see how far we've come. We did what many couldn't, surely we can't be like 'everyone else' now and go back to it!
aaagh, just have to keep our head up and be a bit fierce I suppose!

Runtivated

STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Do what's healthy for your body. Make each choice you make about food count. Don't fall into the trap of allowing food to control your life and your self esteem. Love yourself. Hit up the gym. I'm sure there are other girls you can go with. Find positive healthy minded friends. Talk to someone if you are becoming obsessed. Be good to yourself. There is only one you and you will only pass through this way once. Do it right!!! Good luck!!!

Ah, thank you! Trying so hard to do this, but I think too much and it all crashes. The fruit diet, the low carb diet, the keto, the this, the that...and then strength training or cardio, weights heavy or light, dance or running...its just too many choices!

Runtivated

I had a good week so far but when I start eating candy I feel a binge trying to surface. I may have to give candy up for a while)

Happens to me too! Try buying those mini packets of candies and stuff, and keep only one of each around, so even if you do have them, you'll have no choice but to moderate!

Runtivated

Don't cut back on the nuts just control your portion and try low calorie recipes for things that you really like. That's how I got over bingeing restricting will make you crave more. :flowerforyou:

True But there is no low cal option for nuts, and i'm quite nuts for nuts to be honest :P

lauraspberry

Just control your portions and you'll be fine and nuts are quite filling anyways it's all good hehe

Runtivated

Just control your portions and you'll be fine and nuts are quite filling anyways it's all good hehe

ahaha, portion control it has to be. and nuts are so not filling! they are like chips. enough said. :P

karlospiklington

Going away to University is extremely stressful so don't beat yourself up about gaining some weight. Comfort eating in that situation isn't unusual and by the way, your measurements aren't big so don't be so hard on yourself!

When I got stressed at uni and began to eat too much of the bad and the good I started going for long walks. It got me away from the food I was tempted by and had the effect of making me feel better naturally thanks to those sneaky endorphins. Simple but I found it really effective.

If you truly think you have an eating disorder then I would advise you to talk to a doctor or nurse at uni, but if not then you may be able to manage your stress by walking. Plus walking is a great way to lose a little extra baggage if you need to!

lauraspberry

Girl! You're nuts! HAHAHAHAHA loljk sorry for the bad pun :laugh: :flowerforyou:

Renata2388

Cut out all sugar. It causes massive cravings and triggers the binges. I'm speak from experience. It sucks, but you can do it!

lauraspberry

Cut out all sugar. It causes massive cravings and triggers the binges. I'm speak from experience. It sucks, but you can do it!

Partially true, i dont think you can cut out all sugar since even fruits have sugar in them and our body needs sugar but you can try avoid food which have a high glycemic index, I've noticed that when i eat a banana I get even more hungry afterwards since it has a high GI compared to other fruits try googling the low GI diet

ohheygtan

Hello! First of all, I commend you for being so honest with your binging struggles. It can be hard to come to terms with! Secondly, I recommend cutting yourself some slack. We all "fall off the wagon" from time to time, and although it's natural to be unhappy about it, stressing out over it may actually trigger you to eat even more. It's the worst kind of feedback loop!

So be gentle with yourself. Imagine you saw another woman treating herself the way you're treating yourself when you feel like you've messed up. You'd probably want to hug her, tell her everything's gonna be okay, and help her get back on track, right? You don't deserve any less.

Another thing that may help is by making an effort to be around other people, particularly friends and family. I've found that I'm most likely to binge when I'm feeling some sort of negative emotion and I'm alone. Spending time with people you love, chatting with them about how you're feeling, and just being around people in general can keep you distracted, comforted, and remind yourself how loved you are.

Hope this helps!

jenniferb_00

I have kind of a similar situation on my hands. I lost a lot of wight really fast a few years back. Too much weight it just so happened. I have very disordered eating habits to this day, im not diagnosed with anything but i know better then to think i dont have a problem. I went from my highest, about 175 to about 104, then i started being eating and jumped to 129, now i'm at 118ish. I want to get to 115lbs (i'm 5'3) but i keep binging every other day. I know it can be super hard. I find i suck at portion control, its easier for me is i just don't start eating the foods im likley to binge on. If you ever want to talk feel free to message me.

iowasweetie101

Me too.

kelly_e_montana

If you have binge eating disorder, it probably has little to do with being hungry or making the right choices. If you have binge eating disorder, you are most likely using food as a way to medicate yourself and stop unpleasant episodes of stress, loneliness, depression, or anxiety (the list goes on). Eating too much is not binge eating disorder. Did you eat all those things at once and did you try to hide it? Or, did you eat those things separately? Have you done this several times per week in the last few weeks? Did it happen when you were feeling anxious or just because the food looked good? Compulsive eating and binge eating disorder are not necessarily the same thing. People who have BED often do not fantasize about food; in fact, they often have a negative feelings towards food. BED is something that signals a larger issue, much like cutting is something that expresses a deeper issue.

hollyanne572

To help me from binge eating I make sure I have a piece of fruit with almost every meal or after I have exercised, my blood sugar drops really low and if that happens i become ravenous... so yeah fruit works a charm.

benimruh

Renata2388

Cut out all sugar. It causes massive cravings and triggers the binges. I'm speak from experience. It sucks, but you can do it!

Partially true, i dont think you can cut out all sugar since even fruits have sugar in them and our body needs sugar but you can try avoid food which have a high glycemic index, I've noticed that when i eat a banana I get even more hungry afterwards since it has a high GI compared to other fruits try googling the low GI diet

True about the fruit. I was meaning processed sugars (baked goods, candy, etc.) Low GI is a better way to put it.

Runtivated

Hello! First of all, I commend you for being so honest with your binging struggles. It can be hard to come to terms with! Secondly, I recommend cutting yourself some slack. We all "fall off the wagon" from time to time, and although it's natural to be unhappy about it, stressing out over it may actually trigger you to eat even more. It's the worst kind of feedback loop!

So be gentle with yourself. Imagine you saw another woman treating herself the way you're treating yourself when you feel like you've messed up. You'd probably want to hug her, tell her everything's gonna be okay, and help her get back on track, right? You don't deserve any less.

Another thing that may help is by making an effort to be around other people, particularly friends and family. I've found that I'm most likely to binge when I'm feeling some sort of negative emotion and I'm alone. Spending time with people you love, chatting with them about how you're feeling, and just being around people in general can keep you distracted, comforted, and remind yourself how loved you are.

Hope this helps!

Hey, thank you!
This really helped, in this nice comforting ineedahug way ^.^ You're right, perhaps its time to get out and about a bit. I'm just a very socially awkward person so I tend to er, fade away and right out of the social scene. And yes, being alone causes MAJOR binges!

Runtivated

Cut out all sugar. It causes massive cravings and triggers the binges. I'm speak from experience. It sucks, but you can do it!

Partially true, i dont think you can cut out all sugar since even fruits have sugar in them and our body needs sugar but you can try avoid food which have a high glycemic index, I've noticed that when i eat a banana I get even more hungry afterwards since it has a high GI compared to other fruits try googling the low GI diet

True about the fruit. I was meaning processed sugars (baked goods, candy, etc.) Low GI is a better way to put it.

Guys, this is SUPER true lol.
Before i started college, I was lifting heavy with barbell squats and such and staying on a really low carb diet with lots of cheese and eggs etc, and I was actually gaining a nice lean muscle definition! Carbs seriously lead to more carbs and the sudden sugar spike does nothing for your mood either!
Like I think I went on a carb cycle lol So its endless and now I feel bloated and 'soft' and wobbly. and its literally all happened in a month! I've started low carb again, as in cutting out fruits and yoghurt. First day, but I feel kind of better and slightly positive...

CharChary

I was this way for years and years. I was so confused. Why couldn't I stop eating? Found out: you eat to relieve yourself of other things going on. Things you probably don't even realize that you're numbing by eating. I saw a therapist who helped me become aware of what those underlying problems were. Once I worked on them, I could start working on the food. IT is always going to be a struggle for me. I love to eat, but I have gotten into the habit of tracking my food and trying to eat every 4 hours.

louisetteN

I'm going through a similar situation right now and it's horrible. I've been binging for 4 days and I put on 2.5 kgs!!! I feel really disappointed, but I've downloaded this app in order to get back on track and I'm very excited to get into this big and beautiful family that you guys created here, you are all such a huge inspiration.
I'm supposed to go to London in the middle of December and I hope I'll be able to lose at least 4 kgs til then. I'm doing Body Revolution by Jillian Michaels at the moment and I won't give up on it no matter what, it's already enough that I've binged so much, I'm not going to ruin my fitness activity as well.
Take care and stay strong!